Thoughts on bullying.

Hey there :) I was reading through an article over the net and just developed an urge to post an entry since I haven't done so in weeks. Time flies so fast and the month-long holiday for Sept-Oct is finally coming to an end. I would say it was quite a productive holiday among all the other holidays I had in Poly because I didn't spend it whiling away but earned myself some $$$. Quite productive, no?

Anyway, the topic which I want to talk about in this entry. One that is a serious problem everywhere around the globe, one that can happen at homes, in school, at someone's workplace, and even between strangers.

"Bullying."

Almost everyone encounters this problem once or twice in their life. They may come in forms of mentally and physically, or even just verbally threatening. And to be really honest, the worst kind of bullying there is are actually those expressed in just words. Like they all say, "Words can kill." 

I think this picture explains it all. There is no doubt that bullying victims are more prone to suicidal thoughts. Why? Because for all you know they may already be having problems on their own, and it really doesn't help that you keep pushing them towards the edge of the plank they are already standing on. I know I've said this before, but really, just imagine, what if in a moment of stupidity or just playfulness, you utter out some words which becomes the last straw for someone before they take their lives? Would you be able to live with it?

They really do. I know because I've gone through it. "Fat". "Stupid". "Ugly". "Retarded". "Down-syndrome". For those who are guilty of saying such things or worse. Imagine someone saying that to your sibling, your parents or your child. How'd you feel? Would you like that? Unless you really ARE retarded, you would not like the feeling of that. So stop. Stop saying that to people you meet that you don't like. A perfect person would be trying their best to focus on enhancing their own lives, not pulling down others'. 

"If you don't have anything nice to say, then SAY NOTHING AT ALL."

For those people out there who are being bullied, it's not something to kill yourself for. Many celebrities out there are facing or had gone through that phase in their lives before too. And guess what? They're living the life that many people can only dream of.

What bullies don't know, or DO know, but doesn't think much about it.

Bullying is CONTAGIOUS.

Especially if you're that cool pop kid in school. Clueless and foolish people will follow you in your footsteps of that stupid childish thing you're doing. So stop it. Unless you feel you can be able to handle it when a random stranger comes up to you and tell you, "You've taken away the life of someone I love. What should I do now?"

THINK, before you ACT.

Fated To Love You

Hi Earthlings ^^

Taking a short break out of revision to blog about something I've come across recently.

While watching Crimewatch episodes on YouTube, I came across one of the suggested videos titled "Fated To Love You" (Probably because I've watched a lot of marriage proposals HAHAHA OK NO LINK), and decided to watch the much-raved Korean's version of Fated To You Love. It's a remake of the Taiwanese Drama with the same title or "You're My Destiny", starring Ethan Ruan and Joe Chen, and I personally adore the Taiwan's version. The cast, plot, and basically everything.

So anyway, I went to gooddrama.net to watch a few episodes of the Korean's version and I have to say although not as entertaining as the original, the cast were quite interesting hehe. First there's Jang Hyuk. (Spazzing in progress)

He's playing the male protagonist, as Lee Gun. He's the 9th descendant in his family line and apparently his family has this curse-like thing where all the males would die at the age of 30 plus, so that pretty much explains why grandma Lee was so happy (as in totally ZERO-ANGER) when she found out her grandson made a woman pregnant. I just don't like Jang Hyuk's maniac-like laughter... But he's quite handsome hehehehe. I personally like him because I've seen his cool-ness in Running Man AND HE IS HOT. HAHAHA. He also acted in Dance Of The Dragon alongside Fann Wong!! Some pics. Hehehe.

Jang Hyuk in Running Man ep 44! Isn't he just adorable?? Hehehe.

And here is him with Fann Wong!!! So much love for him but Fann Wong really doesn't match anyone but Christopher Lee. IMHO. Hahahaha. Okay, one last solo shot of Jang Hyuk hehehe.

Mad handsome!!!! But I don't know which drama was this... :'( Time to watch all his dramas when I have the time. Hehehe. Next up, our female protagonist - Jang Na Ra!

Jang Na Ra really befits the role of her character, Kim Mi Young! - The average girl-next-door, plain-looking, but super gorgeous once she has a makeover!

Nawwwww even when she looks down she's so preets...... (Spazzing once again)

I have to admit I've never heard of her name, not once, but after watching this show I think I'll start adding her onto my "FOLLOW" list of Kpop celebrities. She's really soooo preets I can't even. Alright photos of the two other supporting roles before I end off. Hehe.

CHOI JIN HYUK!

One of the guy who falls for adorable Kim Mi Young, because of her innocent and kind personality. Daniel! Hehehe. Too bad they didn't end up together... Not in the Taiwan version, at least...

Wang Ji Won! (As Se Ra)

I have to say that though the other 3 artistes fits into their role perfectly, I felt weird watching her acting as the graceful ballerina... >< Don't ask me why because I don't know why either. Hahaha. And this is the pic of the cast's script-reading for the drama!

Pretty Jang Na Ra!!! Darn pretty omg.

Okay, so I'm done spazzing over the cast. Hehehehehehe. Just a summary of the whole drama, Lee Gun is apparently one of the rich and potential bachelors out there, but too bad he's taken by his girlfriend of 6 years, ballerina Se Ra, who has been trying her best to push back any plans of proposal of marriage with Lee Gun until she has fully realised her dream of being a ballerina and getting her golden role. Kim Mi Young is your regular girl-next-door, and she's so average that people don't notice when she isn't around, of course unless when they need her (She's basically like a post-it, needed by everyone but thrown into the trash can once used). Daniel is a designer who has been living his whole life in regret and trying to find his sister whom he lost at the age of 4. He meets Mi Young at an orphanage where she confesses to him, thinking he's a priest, that she got pregnant, and she didn't know what to do because the father of her child already has a girl he loves. Lee Gun couldn't accept the fact of being a father at first, but eventually falls for Mi Young due to her innocent and kind personality. However, a car accident led to the loss of their baby and a temporary end to their accidental meeting. They meet after 3 years and go through many obstacles again before getting back together.

I really like Mi Young because she's really a kind lady, literally putting others before her own needs, and thinking of others. Never saying No to others, and even when she's pregnant she thinks about the pain of the child's father and his girlfriend, forgoing her own happiness. Such an angel. Hehehe.

One of the best quote I love from this show was when Mi Young got dumped by her boyfriend in Macau, and Lee Gun said to her,

"You are not a post-it. Be a super glue. So that when those jerks tear you away from them, it will hurt them as if they are tearing a piece of their skin away as well."

The most awesome line I've heard in any drama. HAHAHA. I wanna be a superglue too HAHAHA.

A good drama can't really be that good in the absence of great OST, and here's one of the song I really really love from the drama, adding on the fact that it's sung by Ailee!!! It's the song played when Mi Young had her car accident, but it's a really sweet song.

Goodbye My Love Lyrics

My tears remember

It fills up your seat again

I try erasing but I can’t erase you

You’ve become my everything

You, I can’t see you, I can’t hear you

But I’m okay

Goodbyes are sad, my heart aches

But if you are happy, if you can smile, then I…

I will miss you the more I erase you

I will shed more tears than today

Like fate, I won’t ever have anyone like you

Only you, only you

As much as my tears, I hope you are happy

Good bye my love

My heart already knew

This feeling of loneliness that’s about to explode

I try to hide it but I can’t hide it

You’ve become my heart

You, I can’t have you, I can’t touch you

But I’m okay

Endless pain, tears shed again

But if you are happy, if you can smile, then I…

I will miss you the more I erase you

I will shed more tears than today

Like fate, I won’t ever have anyone like you

Only you, only you

As much as my tears, I hope you are happy

You will think of me at least once

That’s all I need, until the day we meet again

I’ll wait, it’s only a momentary goodbye

Good bye my love

Toodles for now!! ^^

Tired.

This pretty much sums up the whole semester for me. All project submissions are done, all presentations are over, class trip is coming up soon and study break is nearing but I still feel so tired... I think I'm just tired of life in general. I don't have the drive to do anything at all. Everyday feels like a drag. I need some novelty in my life, like right now. Routine lifestyle is systematic, true that, but getting rather boring. I need a long break, getaway, whatever. Just feeling grumpy at everyone and everything. What happened, I hear you asking in your tiny little minds? Truth is, I DON'T KNOW EITHER. And this song has been stucked in my head for quite some time. "Amnesia" by 5SOS.

I remember the day you told me you were leaving
I remember the make-up running down your face
And the dreams you left behind you didn't need them
Like every single wish we ever made
I wish that I could wake up with amnesia
And forget about the stupid little things
Like the way it felt to fall asleep next to you
And the memories I never can escape

If today I woke up with you right beside me
Like all of this was just some twisted dream
I'd hold you closer than I ever did before
And you'd never slip away
And you'd never hear me say

I remember the day you told me you were leaving
I remember the make-up running down your face
And the dreams you left behind you didn't need them
Like every single wish we ever made
I wish that I could wake up with amnesia
And forget about the stupid little things
Like the way it felt to fall asleep next to you
And the memories I never can escape

'Cause I'm not fine at all
No, I'm really not fine at all
Tell me this is just a dream
'Cause I'm really not fine at all

Gets to me every single time. Goodnight. X

Unfathomable.

Tried sleeping since hours ago but I'm still wide-awake, so I made the decision to blog about what's on my mind these days. LOL.

Unfathomable - Incapable of being fully explored or understood.

If this is the true definition of "Unfathomable" then I guess there are lots of things I can relate this word to... Like, why do people only want what they've thrown away? Or to say, when it's no longer within their reach? Is it really human nature? Is it true that when some things are within your reach they just aren't THAT attractive to you and you just want to wait till they're in someone else's hands before you want them back? Humans are live beings, not trophies on the shelf to be admired or to be stored one corner and only remembered years after they bring you glory.

Why don't people make enough effort to tell the people around them that they love them and want them, and only do so when those people obviously doesn't want you back anymore? Why do people try so hard to get the attention of someone who used to love them, and no longer do so? Is this a challenge or something? Does getting someone back you lost to another person brings you a sense of fulfilment and happiness? Or you just don't want others to have what you had? Soooo many burning questions in my head.

I just feel those human beings are too unappreciative of what they have. They never stay in one corner and look around at what they have, but instead look far away for what they don't have. WHY?

TREASURE WHAT YOU HAVE, BEFORE YOUR ACTIONS AND TIME CHANGES IT TO WHAT YOU HAD.

Sometimes, even if you want something back, please know that the other person may not want the same thing as you.

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Sometimes, I just want to be alone and put a full stop to everything that's hurting me. xx

Life Lessons

Hellooo peeps ♥

Was supposed to go out for a project meeting today but ended up not going, no thanks to my deteriorating health >:( But thank God it's all okay now ^^

Today's just a day of resting at home and pondering over life and thinking through everything that has happened to me, especially through Secondary School life, where I learnt about many things the hard way. Hahaha. I guess in life shit happens and there's really little (or nothing) we can do to stop shits from happening. Like..

1. NO ONE WILL KNOW WHAT THE HELL YOU'RE THINKING IF YOU DON'T VOICE IT OUT.

I think that's pretty self-explanatory. We all watch dramas and read books and get a little too connected with them and we think that our real-life friends or romantic partners are going to magically figure out what is going on in our tiny heads when we don't say anything. BUT FACE IT, IT DOESN'T HAPPEN ALL THE TIME. Note, not all the time, because there are still some people who are like the worms in your stomach, and they are able to know what you are thinking without even uttering a single word. But not everyone is like that. Even when you go to the clinic you'll have to tell the doctor where you're hurting before he can help you. So point to note, if you don't want to take the initiative to tell people what you are thinking, then don't blame them for not being able to sense your problems. And the same thing applies, if you are dying to know something, ASK FOR IT. Your answers won't just appear in your dreams if you don't ask.

SO? SPEAK UP. IF YOU FEEL PAIN, IF YOU FEEL UNCOMFORTABLE, IF YOU WANT SOMEONE TO KNOW SOMETHING, FREAKING SAY IT.

2. NO ONE'S A SAINT, EVERYONE MAKES MISTAKES. ACCEPT IT.

Admit it, whether you're that top student in class, whether you're the pop kid that everyone idolizes and tries to make friends with, whether you're the most good-looking person in school, YOU MAKE MISTAKES. But something to comfort you a little is that, EVERYONE ELSE DOES TOO. It's perfectly alright to make mistakes, and you don't have to beat yourself up for it. Even the seemingly perfect and successful Mark Zuckerberg was a school dropout. He didn't have it easy from the start. No one did. We all fall at times, we all fail at something, we all cry when things get too tiring and tough, we all feel left out sometimes, and WE ALL MAKE MISTAKES. But as scary as it seems, mistakes aren't really ugly. They are the fundamentals for learning. If you don't make mistakes, you won't learn to apologise, you won't learn to avoid making the same silly mistake. Mistakes = learning. ^^

DON'T BE AFRAID TO MAKE MISTAKES. THEY MOULD YOUR LEARNING.

3. SOMETIMES YOU DON'T REALISE THE POWER OF YOUR WORDS UNTIL IT'S TOO LATE.

Many a time, people tend to be straightforward, and say things that are crucially hurting, but without any realization of it. They just keep spilling ugly things to people, and only realise what it really meant for the receiving party when they get the effect of the words they are being hurled at. And then they regret. They regret when it's too late. When you have the chance to be able to talk to someone, think about it, would it hurt to say something nice instead of something negative to the person? Say YOU'RE PRETTY instead of YOU LOOK UGLY. Say YOU'RE GORGEOUS instead of YOU'RE FAT. Say THE RIGHT ONE WILL COME instead of NO ONE WANTS YOU. Say WORK HARDER instead of YOU'RE DOOMED FOR FAILURE. Is it really that hard? Would you lose a piece of your skin if you say that? Would you die if you say that? Would anything bad happen to you if you were to be nice to someone? HELL NO. So the next time you see someone you always bully, try to say something nice to them, and you'll realise that you actually feel better that way, than saying all the ugly things you've been saying to them all these while. I remember watching an inspirational video months ago, and the main guy in that video said that a male student had been bullied in his school for months, and he was just on his way to suicide when the main guy gave him a big hug and said YOU'RE BEAUTIFUL. Just that 2 simple words, and that stopped the guy from committing suicide. Do you realize how powerful words can be? They can either save a life, or take it away.

IF YOU HAVE NOTHING NICE TO SAY, THEN SAY NOTHING AT ALL.

4. EVERYONE FEELS INSIGNIFICANT ONE DAY OR ANOTHER.

Everyone has those days where they feel like their coffee is more bitter, their hair just curls up the opposite of the way they want, their shirt just looks more crumpled, people are giving them more stares and THE WHOLE WORLD JUST SEEMS LIKE IT'S AGAINST YOU AND YOU'RE BETTER OFF DEAD. But, all you have to know it that it's just a bad day, and a bad day doesn't really last for more than 24 hours. Face up to it, IF YOU DIE, THE EARTH WOULD STILL BE REVOLVING AROUND THE SUN, THAT AUNTIE AT THE HAWKER STALL WOULD STILL BE SELLING HER CHICKEN RICE AND THAT TINY ANT CRAWLING AROUND YOUR HOUSE FLOOR WOULD STILL BE DOING SO. Nothing much would change, just that your friends would probably blame themselves for not being able to stop you, your family members would probably cry their eyes out, and their lives would probably change forever. NO ONE IS INSIGNIFICANT TO EVERYONE. We're all special beings to someone out there and there's someone important to us. So don't treat your life lightly. Your life may be yours, but the aftereffects of your death isn't just your corpse, it comes with the hurt of many other people out there.

LIFE IS PRECIOUS.

5. FORGIVE BUT NEVER FORGET.

When someone hurts you: CRY > GET OVER IT > LEARN > STOP CRYING > REMEMBER.

People may hurl all the nasty things to you when they are mad, and you can forgive them for that, but what an angry man says is always his true inner thoughts.

BECAUSE FORGETTING THEIR UNKIND ACTS GIVES THEM ANOTHER CHANCE TO HURT YOU.

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Hahaha was just reading through Tumblr and suddenly felt like doing up a short post on what I felt was pretty relatable. And before I end off, one final point:

6. WHEN YOU CARE ABOUT PEOPLE, HURT IS KINDA PART OF THE PACKAGE.

Yes I know I'm just basically typing out the text in the picture but just trying to emphasize the point. When you let someone into your life, and decide to make them important, you are giving them the authority to hurt you and cause you pain. You will smile when you see this person being happy. You will feel sad when you see this person cry. And when this person decide to betray and hurt you, YOU WILL FEEL PAIN IN YOUR HEART. Okay not literally but maybe metaphorically. It sucks to have someone important in your life to hurt you. But...

SINCE YOU WON'T KNOW WHEN THAT SOMEONE WILL HURT YOU, CHOOSE WISELY WHO YOU LET INTO YOUR WORLD AND HEART ♥

The Fault In Our Stars ♥

Hello Earthlings ♥

Today's back to school with burden Accounting lecture for a start, followed by project meetups with the group mates. I know Accounting is important and all but I swear I always lose concentration when it comes to this module.. Or basically any other module which requires calculation and all that shit. So we were supposed to have Acc lecture from 9 to 11 and simultaneously, Acc tutorial for 11 to 1 CAN YOU BELIEVE IT??? But THANK GOD Accounting tutorial has been postponed to tomorrow. Okay not like it's something particularly enjoyable for me but at least not 4 hours of Acc in a day. Accounting seriously sucks like shit ugh. (Kudos to all the Accountants out there who are doing their job and earning big bucks. I salute you.)

Project meeting went quite smooth as usual cause I've got the best group mates (Woohoo thick-skin abit HAHAHA) but seriously I think we just do work well at our own pace. In the blink of an eye our meetup was over and it was time for HJM's movie date ♥ The Fault In Our Stars (TFIOS) YAY ♥♥

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My thoughts on TFIOS.. (Spoilers may be included so don't read if you haven't watched lol)

Okay so honestly, before watching the show, I had heard really bad reviews about the movie like how it's just a movie without a proper storyline, or how far it deviates from the actual storybook, and how the movie is just your regular tear-jerker with the scenes that are highly dramatic and predictable. For me, I personally love sad romance movies alot. NOT BECAUSE THEY MAKE ME CRY, but because they are kinda surreal and brings out what you can't really see in real-life relationships nowadays. I MEAN SERIOUSLY NO ONE WOULD BRING ME TO AMSTERDAM JUST BECAUSE I WANNA VISIT AN AUTHOR TO GET THE ENDING OF A STORYBOOK WITH A CLIFF-HANGER ENDING. I personally thought that TFIOS was really nice, WITH A DECENT STORYLINE, PERIOD. The storyline talks about how 2 star-crossed lovers fighting with cancers of their own met, got together, the process of their beautiful relationship and sadly. how they ended. The leads in the movie were well-casted and acted well, although Ansel Elgort looked like he had a hard time trying to fit into those teary-eyed scenes.. Shailene Woodley, on the other hand, did an awesome job on crying just at the right time with the right amount of sadness that brings sadness straight into your heart, or at least that's how she made me feel when I watched the movie. Seeing her cry when Augustus died (YES HE DIED BOOHOO CRY PEOPLE) was really a scene hard for me to take in because her acting was superb. THUMBS UP TO SHAILENE ♥ But of course, like all movies there are bound to be some parts when you don't get what the movie is trying to portray or why the storyline bends in a certain way and what I really don't get is WHY DOES HAZEL GET SO AGITATED AT TIMES JUST BECAUSE OF THE ENDING OF A STORYBOOK??? I mean, I get the feels when reading a good storybook and then it ends with a cliff-hanger and I'm left there feeling like a part of me is missing. I REALLY DO FEEL THAT. But I won't travel all the way overseas to a faraway country or state just to hear the ending and flare up at the author just because he's a seriously deranged douchebag LOL. Some over-reacting scenes there that I couldn't and probably won't ever apprehend the situation she was in or the emotions she was feeling LOL. And it gets pretty frustrating because when I watch a movie all the emotions just comes naturally like in PEE MAK, Mak's friends find out that Nak is a ghost, and they get scared. I FEEL THAT. And in TWILIGHT SERIES: NEW MOON, Edward leaves Bella because he doesn't want her to get killed given the situation she is in, and Bella cries and tries to hurt herself in order to get to see Edward. I FEEL THAT. But I DON'T FEEL WHY HAZEL GETS SO PISSED AT THE AUTHOR LOL. Okay and another point to note, not really negatively but weirdly, because I'm an avid fan of Divergent, and I've actually watched it 5 times, it feels kinda weird watching Shailene Woodley and Ansel Elgort together.. I mean they look totally cute and all but I still feel Shailene and Theo James would make a sweeter couple. ♥♥

Okay so that's all for my review lol. All in all, I'll give this movie a 4/5 because it doesn't disappoint. Really. A nice movie to watch, whether you're watching it with your friends to have a crying session, holding your other half's hands while watching, or just wanna watch it alone in the theatre and just let loose your tears :D

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Back to my daily life, so what I've been doing these few days was actually spending the whole time watching Wedding Proposals on Youtube and Facebook and there are so many sweet couples out there. ♥♥♥ Makes me feel more sure that a Wedding Planner is what I want as my dream job in future. And the future for me into the workforce isn't really far from now hahahaha. So this is one of the proposals which I thought was really sweet, the video was really well-made, even though there were some really "lame" moments. The music, though classical, was really well-incorporated and I CRY EVERY SINGLE TIME I WATCH THIS PROPOSAL. EVERY SINGLE TIME. TOO BEAUTIFUL, honestly speaking. Go watch it! ^^

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eUdXTnhHSec&feature=share

The male lead in this proposal is called Visoth Sal and basically their love story is one that started in uni life, and they both get smitten and infatuated with one another, and meeting each other's parents, friends, and then travelling together. Eventually the guy had to go to Phnom Penh and their relationship became a long-distance relationship. And eventually the guy asked the girl for a break-up because he didn't want her to waste her youth waiting for him. BUT OF COURSE neither of them had any intentions to let go of one another, and they eventually reunited because the guy took the courage to initiate a convo which got them back together. HOW SWEET IS THAT. ♥ Being far apart sucks but if both parties give and take, everything will turn out well. They are such a pretty and cute couple hehehehehe.

So that's all for now hohoho. Till the next time! ♥ GUNAI EARTHLINGS ♥

Dreams

Hello ^^ Back to blogging after a hectic week of project meetsups and whatnot. Time flies so fast when I'm busy and I just realised that June is soon coming to an end. Everything really flies fast once you're approaching the "Adult" stage. Hoho.

So... The big word, "Dreams". Everyone has them. They say that our dreams often change as we grow, and I'll say that's pretty true to a certain extent because my dreams changed at least thrice. Haha, and it ranges from those fantasy-like ones to those realistic ones.

The very first time I actually thought about my future and possible career path I might be walking down, was when I was around the age of 7. I'd wanted to be a teacher, and I remember taking out all my previous exercise books and just spend my time happily marking them like as if I was a student. I even forced my mum and dad to be students just so I could fulfil my bouts of daydreaming being a teacher.

Then at the age of 11, I had my first music competition, which required me and my friends to listen to a song and then perform them in front of our music teacher. That's when I got my first contact with music and actually listening and learning about them. And the song I sang was an old-school song from 5566. It was 守候 if I'm not wrong, and that song still gives me goosebumps when I listen to it. Haha! That's when my dreams of becoming a teacher turned into being a singer. I remember becoming so obsessed with singing that I started buying MP3 players, discman (a device which we use to listen to music by inserting a music CD into it), and buying albums from various Mandopop singers and singing them all day and all night. That dream of me becoming a singer got pretty serious and lasted for quite a few years. HAHA. But too bad, I only loved singing, but it wasn't something I could do well. ><

When I went into ITE, I got into the Leisure and Travel Operations course, and my dream career changed to becoming a tour guide. My dream throughout the 2 years in ITE was to travel around the world and getting as much exposure as I could, and meeting new people from all over the world. By then I had already been to various countries like Australia, Malaysia, China and Taiwan, but I wanted to visit more countries like Venice, Maldives, and Korea. Just the thought of flying around and meeting new people made me feel excited and happy. Being on a plane always makes me happy because I know I'm going to get to enjoy a whole new environment from the moment I land.

After ITE, I continued my studies in TP, and now my dream is to either become a wedding planner and open up a wedding company, or to work in the cruise business. 

Imagining being able to help happy and anticipating couples pave their way through their marriage and help them to plan every part of their wedding. Isn't it wonderful? Hehe. Excited just at the thought of it.

I hope this dream of mine won't change soon. Hope to get a chance to work at a wedding company soon hehehe. Goodnight people! 

Change.

Got motivated to blog since it's been a good 5 months plus since I last blogged. HAHA.

Okay, so, CHANGE. Change is scary, it's unpredictable, it's unappealing for people who are used to living inside their protective bubble, and it certainly is INEVITABLE. Change happens all the time, and more often than not, it marks certain milestones for us in our lives. And when you can't avoid change, well, you just gotta learn to accept and live with it.

Throughout our lives, we experience changes in almost every aspect of the life journey. Our schools change, our friends change, our furniture change, our hair change, our... (YOU GET THE POINT) But what scares me the most is when PEOPLE CHANGE. I'll be upfront and honest, CHANGE REALLY SCARES ME.

I don't know whether it's a Capricorn thing or what but when I get into a situation, I try to get myself familiarized with the situation and I hate having to leave a place where I'm so comfortable to a place where I don't know anyone or don't know how to do anything.

And in 2014, there has been a few changes which I'm being forced to go through, like having my classmates split up into different classes, having to get used to things that I may not necessarily like, trying to juggle more projects on-hand, and watching someone close to me travel to a place far away from me. ><

I understand change but I'll never like it. I've seen how friendships torn, couples broken up, families strained all because of the word 'Change'. There's a saying that goes, "Don't be afraid of change. You may lose something good but you may end up with something better." WHAT IF I DON'T? Change is so scary because it doesn't happen overnight, it happens over time. It happens when people stop making efforts, it happens when friends stop texting one another. :( And I know I'm gonna experience more changes in my life just few months or years later like, getting to work under internship, getting out of poly and work, paying my own bills, buying my own house, living my own life without my family.

This is why I try not to get too close to anyone in life because when they change, I'll beat myself up for letting them in through the door and the disgusting cycle repeats. :'(

I'm scared of change especially when it brings people away from me. 
Can you promise not to change?

I JUST HATE CHANGE I HATE IT KTHANKSBYE.

Compliments or noo? ♥

Page  2/365;

Day 2 of the new year and here I am in school to do my projects >< So I was just in the bedroom last night doing my stuffs and just thought of sharing some super random stuffs. Like how words which are meant to be compliments, can turn out to be really disastrous when the receiving party is a girl. LOL.

♥ YOU DAMN PHOTOGENIC EH!
Interpreted as...
- You only look good on photos
Most probable reply...
- SO YOU'RE SAYING THAT I LOOK UGLY IN REAL LIFE LA?!

♥ YOU LOOK SO NICE IN REAL LIFE!
Interpreted as...
- You don't look good in photos
Most probably reply...
- SO MY INSTAGRAM PHOTOS ALL NOT NICE LA?!

♥ YOU LOOK SO CUTE!
Interpreted as...
- Cute = ugly but adorable
Most probable reply...
- SO I'M UGLY?!?!

♥ YOU'RE TALL!
Interpreted as...
- You look like a man
Most probable reply...
- SO NOW SAY I LOOK VERY MAN LA?!

♥ YOUR BODY LOOKS GOOD!
Interpreted as...
- Sex
Most probable reply...
- PERVERT

♥ YOU'RE DAMN SMART EH!
Interpreted as...
- You're a geeky nerd
Most probably reply...
- SO YOU'RE SAYING I'M LIKE A NERD WHO ONLY READS BOOKS OF HARRY POTTER LENGTH?!?!

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LOL so that was what I was just thinking about yesterday. But it's all for laughs so don't take any of it to heart HAHAHA.

New Year 2014! ♥

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2014 EVERYONE~ ♥

Just felt like recapping on my life in 2013 hehe.

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In 2013, I've learnt and experienced many events on a first-hand basis, and I think that I've really learnt quite a lot in the year, and also matured from it (somehow?). I've had ups and downs, but I'm glad that through it all, there were people who walked with me through it all. ♥

I started off the New Year in 2013 just after ending work in Farmosa Holiday Tours, and few days later I was awaiting my final results before applying for a polytechnic. Before choosing the polytechnic that I want, my Care Advisor (our form-lecturer in ITE) told me to choose a course in RP because I'd have a better chance of getting in, as I didn't even have a steady GPA of 3.5, only 3.2. As a student applying from ITE, I had 5 choices, and I placed my Top 3 choices in RP. After choosing those 3 courses, I didn't put much thought into choosing the 4th and 5th choice because I was pretty sure there weren't any more courses in RP that I preferred. So I placed my current course into my 4th choice and another course in NP. You could say that I placed them for 'fun' because I really did not expect to get into a 'better' poly, if I couldn't get into RP. When I told my cousin about my choices, she looked pretty dissatisfied, but I looked past that and tried not to notice her disagreement with my choices.

Then the day of the results came, and I went out with Felicia to satisfy her craving for swimming. As she is preparing to go into the pool, my eyes were fixated onto my phone and checking the time, the release of the results were either 1pm or 2pm, I can't really remember it but it's around there, and Fel was telling me to just chill and relax. Then the minute-hand struck 12 and I went to log in, and there I saw, Congratulations, you have been selected to TP - Leisure and Resort Management. I remembered just 'stun' on the spot and Fel was saying 'That's good!' but all I was thinking was 'Why not RP?????' Then Adeline called me and told me she went into the same course as me. After I told people around of the course I was in, almost everyone was shooting me their wide grins, especially my cousin ♥ I could see she was really proud for me to be in this course. Okay, confusion aside, I was pretty elated that I got into TP because that was the first poly I'd visited in sec school and basically the poly that I wanted to get in. ♥

The first few days of being in poly was pretty intimidating to me because although I had friends in the same course, I didn't know anyone in my class and I was pretty afraid because I had heard that in every class, there'd definitely be people who'd look down on the 'older' ones, and I was practically keeping to myself. Then some of my classmates came and chatted with me and made me open up. Apparently everyone was so awesome and bubbly and up till now I still feel super glad to be in this class. ♥ The days, weeks and months following that day just keeps getting better because the projects were smooth, the people were nice, the tutors and lecturers were doing their job and everything was going well. 

In 2013, the friends I made had put in efforts to be there for me, cheer me up, be by my side, show off their silly antics and making me feel blessed day by day. Although I did not have much time in the field of r/s this year, but having these awesome people are adequate enough for me ♥♥♥

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In 2014, I wish to continue meeting nice people, making progress in my life, being there for people, and also hopefully find the person who'd be there for me anytime, anywhere. ♥