TREASURE WHAT YOU ALREADY HAVE ♥

Back to blogging! ♥

It's been just one week into holiday and I'm being drained of energy (positively) thanks to outings with lovely peeps!! Can't wait for the following and it bodes more positive vibes! Hehehe!

AND A SUPERBLY HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO DEAREST AMIRAH ♥♥♥
FINALLY 20 ALREADY!!!
I'M PRAYING FOR OUR FRIENDSHIP TO LAST TILL WE'RE 30, 40, AND EVEN BEYOND ♥

AND MAY OUR FRIENDSHIP LAST TILL THE END OF THE WORLD ♥

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Recently there has been so many articles circulating around Facebook, on guys trying so hard to be girls, on mothers dragging their children across the road despite onlookers, and many other random subjects. And I just got into my own train of thoughts about things. Things I wished I had. Things I wondered why others always did better than me. I guess it is just in our blood and in human nature to be jealous and not contented easily. We always want what we can't have, not because having that particular thing makes us happy, but because the fact that others have it just makes owning it seem victorious or makes us glorified, in a way? Like you've just started work at some place, and you discovered this ridiculously cheap chicken rice at some quiet place, and after you eat it, you just find it so nice that you began to have it every day. And then one day, when another colleague of yours invites you for lunch, and suggested to lunch over at some mad crowded place, and when you finally got a seat, your colleague went to order Astons and seeing them eat their meal just makes your mouth water. So from then on, you'd probably rush over to order Astons even though it is crowded and expensive. Though that may not be true for everyone but most people would definitely react that way!

I guess what I'm trying to say is just simple - BE CONTENTED. Things suitable for others may not fit into your life as easily as you think. Like, I've always thought about why others can have pretty nails from mani-pedi and I can't, and I'd always want to try it, but I'm someone who has to do housework, and that includes hand-washing my clothes, so spending a hefty sum just to get my nails done would be pretty silly because they wouldn't be as lasting as the ones on girls who don't have to do housework. So contentment is joy too! ♥ 

Last page before December comes ♥

Last post before December arrives! Really looking forward to it as it's the year-end and that's when we look back on our lives and see how much we've grown and changed in just the past few months. ♥ And there's something awesome installed for me on the eve of Christmas, hehehe ♥♥♥

I would say that this has been a year of ups and downs, well, more to the downs than usual. I don't want to be superstitious or what but maybe because it's the year 20-13 (Thirteen is one of the 'feared' numbers in Chinese tradition as it bodes bad luck, right? I think...)

I've received and gained a lot in these 11 months, like getting a chance to study in the poly which I've always wanted to be studying in, instead of paying for a private diploma (I DON'T LOOK DOWN ON PEOPLE WHO DO THAT), but I get to see the fruits of my labour in ITE, and it tastes really sweet because even though I'm not one of those top students in my cohort or whatsoever, I feel good going to school having the mindset that there are always going to be nice people around who's willing to help me and receive help from me. That's something that makes me feel really happy. ♥ Having positive thoughts mentally before you head out for the day can really make a difference! Try it! ^^

Just came back from my F&B test today and I felt that I did just fairly okay. >< Well, what's over is over! Gotta keep moving on! Next up, Marketing paper! Which is on Friday at 8pm omg. Just kill me. Paper at 8... Never had it but kinda looking forward to it HAHAHA cause it's a first and anything that's a first always sounds intriguing to the human brain doesn't it? ^^ For me at least hahaha.

OH... And I had a wisdom teeth extraction just days ago and I'm just gonna post about what happened inside that dental room......... WHICH I HONESTLY DREADED SO MUCH TO GO IN. ><

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WEDNESDAY 

11:00AM

So here I am, sitting in the coffeeshop and having my(very full and sumptuous) lunch thinking when is the next time I can eat as carefree as this time after my extraction. I honestly went on and read about so much bad reviews and those after-effects of wisdom teeth extraction and the fact that the previous dentist told me I had to extract all 4 DID NOT HELP AT ALL.

11:30AM

So here I am sitting in front of the receptionist in Q&M, and she's busy finding forms for my mother and me to sign, apparently to get consent for the extraction to take place. And the next thing I know, I'm off to meet the dentist for the first time (Note: It's the first time because another dentist was the one who had checked my teeth the other time). After he checked my teeth, he gave me a really detailed explanation and what was really going on with me that caused my toothache, SOMETHING THE PREVIOUS DENTIST DID NOT GO THROUGH WITH ME ABOUT. Ugh still feeling pissed about that. The dentist, Mr Ahmad said that apparently I have all 4 wisdom teeth inside on my mouth, 3 of which are impacted (simply means that they are not growing correctly or aren't growing well in the teeth = EXTRACTION ALERT), and the left side of my cheek, the side which had been giving me problems, had an impacted wisdom tooth on the bottom and one simple one on the top. Mr Ahmad advised me that it'd be best to remove the ones which are causing me the toothache for now, and it would be ideal to remove the simple one because for now it's easy to extract. So after consideration, I decided to go ahead with extracting just 2, as I still needed to have a healthy side to chew my food after the extraction. The other 2 teeth, as I was told, the one on the top is impacted quite badly, that's why I can't feel it, because my gum has grown over it, so it's gonna be more difficult to try and extract it. >< Sucks to be me.

(MY HEART WAS LITERALLY THUMPING AT THIS POINT IN TIME...)

Then I was asked to lie down and be given a local anesthesia, which is when they inject the numbing thing into my gums to make the procedure painless for me. Dr Ahmad first applied 2-3 times of the raspberry numbing cream, and by the third time he applied one side of my mouth was already numb. AND THEN I SAW IT. 4 SYRINGES. I literally screamed OH GOD inside of my head because I'm seriously a scaredy cat especially when it comes to needles. So I just looked at the syringe going into my mouth, and honestly I felt ZERO feelings for the first 2 syringes, but at the third needle, I felt the pain and I wriggled in my seat. Then it came down to the last one which was painless as well. After that, I was asked  to sit outside and wait for the numbing to take effect before they could carry on with the extraction.

11:40AM - 11:50AM

I swear 10 minutes really never felt that long in my entire life. I was literally trying to feel and calm down my own heartbeat when I was sitting outside. And when I tried to communicate with my sister, she couldn't understand a single word I was saying. It was considered awesome for me at that time as that meant that the effect was coming. Then time's up, I was asked to go in for the extraction.

11:50AM - 12:30PM

These 40 minutes were the worst I had to go through in my life. I was literally seated there, and although the nurse told me I could listen to my music to help calm me down, it's really quite pointless because I had to remove one to hear what the dentist and the nurse was saying. To be really really honest, I would be lying if I said there were no pain involved. THIS IS SERIOUSLY A LIE. Okay maybe it's just me since I have a really small (and troublesome) jaw. The dentist was having difficulties trying to extract one of the tooth (I didn't know which) and because it was so difficult, he took out 2 syringes to numb it AGAIN before continuing to extract it. So imagine I was seated there, one of my ears listening to the music and another naked to the conversation of those 2, and having my mouth moving back and forth because it was that difficult to remove. I could feel the pressure of them pulling my tooth, literally, but after some bouts of pulling, their hands left me and I heard 'DONE'. SO BASICALLY YOU FEEL THE PULLING AND ALL BUT NOT THE END RESULT. It was a horrendous procedure but really thankful for the dentist because he tried to make it as painless as possible and the nurse for holding my hands throughout the entire procedure. YES I WAS THAT SCARED. And then the next thing I know I saw two disgusting looking teeth with super long roots staring back at me. It was really a burden off of my shoulders! Then I was given some post-operation tips and given some medication, FOLLOWED BY 7 DAYS MC and off I go back home.

40 MINUTES IS REALLY A LONG TIME.

Conclusion?

Well, I think that the dentists were quite professional, it's just that my teeth was really damn troublesome for them to extract. Basically how you know for sure you have a wisdom tooth is to touch your teeth to check it for yourself! Separate your teeth to 4 quarters, from the front teeth, and start counting. A quarter with 8 teeth means for sure that you have wisdom teeth, and they usually start growing from the age of 17 - 25. Basically that's when you become 'wise', or so they say, and that's why it's called Wisdom Tooth LOL. BUT, it doesn't mean that when you have only 7, you do not have wisdom tooth. It just means you may have impacted ones. Like the top right wisdom tooth of mine, and that would require more trouble to extract! Not everyone with wisdom teeth has to go for extraction indefinitely, because most people have well-defined jaws which is able to keep all the teeth in it straight, so there's simply no need for extraction. But if it is causing you pain then please go and check it out because it will turn to infection, which is what happened to me, and worse, turn into tooth decay, which is seriously an ugly sight.

From what I had read about online, the after-effects of wisdom teeth extractions are usually swelling and pain, which I DO NOT HAVE. So I guess it differs from each individuals so don't be scared to extract it just solely for this reason! ^^ Happy to say that I'm able to consume hard foods now hehehehe. Just 3 days after my extraction! For now everything has been going well for me but I'll have to visit the dentist again to remove the stitches of the operation site. So hopefully all goes well! *PRAYS TO GOD*

Oh and don't be afraid that you can only go for local anesthesia! For those people who wants to extract all 4 at once, or are really afraid of the pain, you can research more on other private clinics which provides general anesthesia! Point to note: Do your research! Hahaha. Finishing off with some pictures and enjoy yours weekends and the arrival of DECEMBER! ♥♥♥

I know it's really gross but yeap!!!!! ><

Got this from the nurse as a 'keepsake'... Uh...

ZERO SWOLLEN CHEEKS! Just really numb gums!

AND SOME REALLY RANDOM SHOTS FOR TODAY!

Don't I look awesome? HAHAHAHA.

MY FRIEND DID A REALLY ZUN POSE. HAHAHA.

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The truth about Death.

Have you ever thought about death? For me, I think about it from time to time. Not that I'm suicidal or anything, but my mind just wander off and makes me think about death. When I say thinking about death I mean just everything about it - why it happens, how it happens, what leads to that and what will possibly happen after death?

I just got a sudden flashback from when I was just about 7 to 8 yeats' old? I remember lying down on the bed and just looking at my mum and dad who was already asleep by then, and had my first thoughts about the questions of death because if I'm not mistaken, that was the first time I watched a show where a person passed away. I thought about that show, and the sadness that comes from the family after that, and I thought about where the person would go to. 

"Lying down there in that wooden space, wouldn't he be scared? He just had a fall and slipped, and then fell into a deep sleep, why did he family start to burn joss sticks for him? What happens to him after that? How come he doesn't appear in the show anymore?"

And then I thought about, what if one day, that happened to me too? What if I passed away, and there is really nothing after that? No soul, nothing, just a dead shell? Would I be able to see my family members, friends again? Can I re-live the life that I was having as a human, with the people I love with me? And then I remembered about this show set in the olden times. Basically a very normal man just fell ill and passed away, and when he died his soul flew to a dark and cold place, where an old later makes a concoction of some normal looking soup, and lets him drink it, After which, he just vanished into thin air. I had read about people who died, before they recairnate, they would be asked, or forced to drink this soup called the 孟婆汤. Anyone who drinks it will forget everything that has happened to them in the mortal realm, so that they may recairnate into a new life. When I think about the memories about me, my friends, and the people I've once admired will all be gone from my life, I'll cry. It's such a saddening thought and just really upsetting. I even thought of earning lots of money in the future so that when I die, I can pass the money to the person so they wouldn't have to erase my memories. Haha. But I guess what's really worse about forgetting the memories of those I loved are the regrets of not saying the things that I should've said when I had the time or when the person was still around.

I had attended a few funeral of my relatives, and one that really had me crying was my maternal grandmother's. Although I was not really close to her, she loved me as her grandchild and always showered me with affection despite only being able to lie on her bed. I had vague memories of her still being able to move around when I was just about 4 years' old? Those memories just hit me hard on the final day of the funeral, when my mum kept quiet throughout the journey to the location, and watching her cried for her mum makes me think about her pain that she has to go through. My mum was about 50 years' old when my grandma passed away. How would it feel to live for 50 years with someone you love dearly, and that person showering you with unconditional love, just had to leave you to fend for yourself, forever? It was a pain I couldn't imagine.

I honestly feel that too many people are taking each other for granted and taking their own life as something that isn't in any way miraculous to them. I really hate it when people who wants to commit suicide says things like, "No one will care after I die. Because no one did when I was alive. No one cared for me." COME ON. Everyone has a meaning for their existence in their lives. Even a newborn baby, who may unfortunately not have the adequate stamina to maintain his life, and passed away, his parents, grandparents, who were all awaiting his arrival, would be so so sad. What more to a child who has came into this world and lived with his parents? If you were not precious to them they would have dumped you when they could. And even if your parents were some psychotic people who really couldn't care less about you and your welfare, what about your friends? How would they feel if someone they used to be so close to, someone they used to text, just disappear from their lives? Wouldn't they be sad? Life is so precious, everyday in the hospital, so many patients are struggling just to stay alive for even 1 minute more than what they are given. Those who have their lives, why can't you treasure it like those patients would? Everyone deserves to live, even criminals, they deserve to stay alive so that they can receive the punishment for their mistakes and hopefully turn over a new leaf. For people who are beyond control, death will find its way to them, like the people given death sentences.

LIFE IS PRECIOUS. TELL THE PEOPLE THAT YOU LOVE, YOU LOVE THEM, WHEN YOU CAN. Don't wait for time to make the people you have become the people you had.

All the things that I wish for ♥

Been long since I last used this space, and 20+ days flew so fast that it's gonna be 1st November by the time I finish this post, lol (Or near).
October was a steady month with ups and downs, and I can only wish for November to be much better ^^ School has started and so has CDS, short for Cross Disciplinary Subjects for TP.
I took up French and Psychology and happy to say, so far everything I'm learning up till now has been able to stay in my head and has been quite interesting for me. Feel even more thankful for the friendly classmates I have for both classes ♥ Though it was a little bit hard to try and talk to them from the start, but I'm glad that I've made some friends teehee. :D
Glad that I had been able to achieve some of my October "resolutions", or how I call it. :P
Like:
- Able to watch ghost movies without being scared (EXCLUDING THAI HORROR)
- Lose 4 kg mehehe... Better than nothing right?
- Fought the many bouts of temptation to trim my fringe and now it's finally long enough to be tied all the way back (WOOHOO for myself - cheap thrills)
- Stay focused since school started and revised each time after a lecture / tutorial (But POM still seems difficult to me :( )
- Saved up some money for my planned Birkenstock sandals, Tiff & Co.bracelet and Note 3. Kudos to myself mehehe. (Side note: It's extremely hard for someone like me to save money so I'm proud of myself hehe)
- Learned how to sing most of the songs in my playlist ♥♥
- Finished watching all the dramas I've had in mind before school started, like; A Change Of Heart (HK), Queen of SOP (China / Taiwan), Snow Is Burning (Superrrrr old China drama), Boys Over Flowers (Re-watching over and over again)

And I guess that's most of the things which I've managed to WANT to achieve and actually DID IT. Hahaha proud of myself looking at all of those things. Moment of happiness thanks to cheap thrills. ♥

So I've made a list on what I wanna achieve in November and well... Hope I can achieve it luh if not... I won't talk about it. >< HAHAHA.

OH and, thanks to French CDS, I've started listening to some awesome French songs and two super nice ones which got my attention are "Comme Un Hic" and "Donne Moi Le Temps" by this preets singer called Jenifer. Just go search it up on YouTube and you'll be able to find it! But for people who HATES French language I don't think you should even try to listen because it's kinda irritating at first, even for me hahaha.

Ending off with an XOXO ♥

Short getaway; in the small red dot ♥

Back to reality~! Had a refreshing short getaway with the poly mates and although the getaway was reeeeeally short, but glad that it happened. ^^ These 3D2N was well-spent at the Aranda Country Club and I've had lots and lots and lots and lots of fun. I was gonna go on and on but, you get the drift. Haha. So many firsts happened like:

- First time being the one to help start the fire and BBQ for people

- Learning how to play mahjong for real and playing it throughout the night

- Spending the night with classmates

- Buying alcoholic drinks for myself and the peeps

So much to love about this getaway thanks to the location, people, and so many more things. I'm not really a chalet kind of person, so I don't really know what kind of chalet there were out there, and because we were in kind of a rush, so we just booked whatever chalet we could, and thankful for my mum, we got the Aranda Country Club at just $80! I was so elated and happy to share the news with the peeps and we were having so many plans prior to the event and I did some research up on the place. Dumb move because I nearly scared myself for nothing when I saw some reviews talking about ghosts and all. *THANKFUL FOR ZERO-CREEPINESS*

First day was kind of a rush because the check-in was during the late afternoon (3PM), and the directioners (some insane name we call ourselves) went shop before getting our lunch because most of us hadn't eaten anything >< Had our lunch at Just Acia and the food was just awesome, with free flow of drinks and ice cream as a bonus! ♥ After all that, we went back to the chalet and started some games like blackjack, mahjong and all, and then it was photobomb session. Haha. I wasn't really that "enthu" for the first night so I slept kind of early like 3plus? In the end I tossed and turned till 5plus before my eyes closed LOL.

Next day all the early birds, including myself went out to grab some mac breakfast and kfc porridge for ourselves, but we got a disappointment when we saw the kfc closed. :( MAJOR BOOHOO. Then time passed and in the blink of an eye, it was time for BBQ! Halfway through starting the fire, we had a mini war with some ants and a disgusting hornet, and before we knew it we were all squatting down like some police catching some teenagers in possession of drugs. Too funny a sight for me to forget. Hahahaha. Finally I start to see more familiar faces of 1K05 and our preets SLs ^^ The whole chalet just felt abit more lively with them around. More is always merrier hahaha. After 4+ hours of BBQ-ing, I ran to the bathroom immediately because the smoky smell and sticky feeling was super strong >< After that, we had a looooong time chatting, playing, blackjack-ing, and playing mahjong. I swear beginner's luck exists because I was on a winning roll. Heehee. Had my first try on Heineken beer and it was damn gross. >< Tasted and smelt like garlic. It's just damn gross. I'd prefer long island tea and Breezer to beer on any other days. After one full round of mahjong, it was 8am and I went to catch a 1 hour sleep. *Mad shagged when I woke up* And not long after, we were bidding goodbyes. T.T

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All in all, this getaway was really awesome and one of which I will definitely remember for a long long time haha. It's just been a day and I'm already missing Aranda. :'( For you people out there, you can consider this place for your own getaway too because it's really an awesome place. Firstly, the pictures of the website doesn't disappoint because what you see is what you get. And unlike other chalets, Aranda gives a more homely feeling where it's just an apartment with two bedrooms - one with a queen-sized bed and the other with two single beds. (Apparently the girls got the one with the queen-sized bed heehee) The whole place felt lovely and not creepy at all. The location was really convenient with DTE and e!hub just in front. The only downside that I felt was probably when I found out we couldn't cook except boiling water. >< So that's all for today!!!! Gonna end off with some pictures heehee. ♥♥♥

On the way to the chalet! ^^

Some card games I brought over mehehe. >:)

Breezer's the best. ♥

Just some photos during Blackjack ♥

Photobomb in the room Pt1

Photobomb in the room Pt 2

Photobomb in the room Pt 3

Photobomb in the room Pt 4

Captains of BBQ ♥♥

Dark chocolate cupcakes from Ms Sheila! ♥

Us after BBQ ♥♥♥ Lovely peeps!

Yay to 1K05 + 2 SLs! Love these preets peeps! ♥

Keepsakes ♥♥♥

Thanks for reading, love y'all! ♥♥ XOXO

October + EXO Sasaengs

♥ OCTOBER ♥

Fun, joy, laughter, excitement, experiences, adaptations, change.

I've received all of these in just a period of 30 days in September, and everyday I wake up looking forward to more pleasant news and surprises. ♥

It was the month where I ended my first semestral examinations in TP, where I got to meet up with all my favourite peeps (most of them), had an enjoyable night with the ITE mates, and had my first try on an alcoholic drink :D Not such a big deal though, cause it's just Breezer. >< Can't wait to try more hee.

Feel so thankful for such a smooth-sailing month of September, and I can't wait for all the good things to come in October. ♥♥ Started off the month with the piece of good news that we got the chalet we wanted for the class! Yay to that and can't wait for the arrival of next week! Hee, even though I say that I'm still kinda creeped out a little because I had nothing better to do and went to search on whether the chalet is haunted or not. YES I'M SERIOUS. The good thing is 3 out of 4 reviews said that the place was good and 'clean', so I shall not venture further into anymore creepy stuffs on Aranda hahaha.

Although September has been really fun and all, I was stuck at home since Monday and so I don't really have much to blog about going out. :( But I am soooooo mad pissed at this particular topic that surfaced just this week and I just really feel the need to rant it all out because I'm seriously bursting. >:(

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EXO SASAENG FANS

Sasaeng fans, as defined by Wikipedia, refers to those "excessively obsessed Hallyu fan. They are extreme fans who stalk their idols and invade their privacy with questionable methods."

 

Source: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sasaeng_fan

I had always been a fan of kpop, and just recently became interested in the kpop group called EXO. I find them multi-talented during their performances, quick-witted and honest in their variety shows, and also always showing their brotherly bond whenever they make confessions and such. Just 2 days ago, I came across a piece of news with the headlines, "Sasaengs Attending EXO Baekhyun's Brother's Wedding". I didn't know what Sasaeng meant at that time, because I've never heard about them when reading articles on other idols like Big Bang and SHINee, but I got a really negative first impression of this word when I went on to read the article. To sum it all up, Sasaengs (I'll just call them that minus the 'fans' because they don't deserve to be called that way) went into the wedding uninvited and stood on the chairs for guests and relatives of the wedding to video the EXO members who were present (there were 3 members who came to the wedding to congratulate the couple with a song). Apparently even after the members begged and reassured the Sasaengs that they would give them autographs after the wedding, they were still trying to push around. Baekhyun got really angry because after all, it's his brother's one and only wedding and he didn't expect this to happen. From another source I'd read, 

http://kpoprookies.com/sasaeng-fans-cause-chaos-at-exo-baekhyuns-brothers-wedding/?utm_source=rss&utm_medium=rss&utm_campaign=sasaeng-fans-cause-chaos-at-exo-baekhyuns-brothers-wedding#

One of the Sasaengs hit him in the throat because they were being ignored. WHAT IN THE FUCKERY IS THIS?? YOU PEOPLE DESERVED TO NOT JUST BE IGNORED BUT THROWN OUT OF THE PREMISES AT THAT TIME. Not only that, they gave Baek chrysanthemum flowers to threaten him for ignoring them. I SWEAR THESE PEOPLE ARE PSYCHOTIC.

And just when everybody thought that these crazy Sasaengs has ended their nonsense, out came a letter of threaten for Baek to warn him not to treat them like "Insects", and that they find it cute when Baek gets angry. WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU PSYCHOPATHS?! YOU ARE SERIOUSLY AND OBVIOUSLY VERY DISORIENTATED.

I find it really really sad and upsetting that such things are happening to EXO. They used to be cheerful and happy-go-lucky guys who are always smiley-faced and cheerful to people they meet, well, when the cameras are rolling, at least. And these things are happening to them, making them lose their cool and all. Not just EXO, I pity the actual and normal fans of them to be categorized together with the Sasaengs. People who categorize fans and Sasaengs, you are really degrading the fans.

Apart from this issue, apparently Sasaengs of EXO did many other disgraceful things which I just have to mention because I'm puzzled and grossed out by what they have requested the members to do.

1. "Sasaengs asked for EXO's sperms" - WTF IS THIS?? Why would any sane person request for such a thing from anyone?! This is seriously degrading and not just to your species (Sasaengs), you're degrading girls as well. Where are your morals, where is your dignity? Is that what you should do? Even if you really LOVED them, you don't ask for their sperms okay. This is just gross and awkward and all. OMG level 10/10

2. "Sasaeng came into EXO's apartment and when Kai asked the Sasaeng to leave, she smiled and said, "I would do it again." - Now even though this may not be as gross as other requests I've read, but seriously? After you have been confronted and scolded face-to-face with your idol, how would you have the face to smile and say that you would do it again? Are you out of your mind? Are you that desperate for their attention????? OMG level 7/10

3. "Sasaeng does sex with taxi driver when they don't have enough money to pay." - THIS IS MAD DEGRADING! PEOPLE, IF YOU CANNOT AFFORD TO BE A SASAENG, JUST BE CONTENTED WITH LOOKING AT YOUR IDOLS IN THE POSTERS. WHY WOULD YOU DO SUCH THINGS OMG. How would your parents look at you if they knew you were doing such things, all these nonsense, all for? An idol who most probably does not even know of your existence. THIS IS PURE STUPIDITY AT ITS HIGHEST LEVEL. OMG level 10/10

4. "A sasaeng said she'll cut her vein if Luhan dates someone not her." - WHAT. JUST, WHAAAAAAT? These people you are worshipping are just pure human beings. They came from their parents and I'm sure they want to be a parent themselves too. Someone really needs to slap this fan in her face and ask her who she thinks she is. Does your idol know that you exist? If the answer is no, I don't think he would actually know if you cut yourself too. WHY ARE YOU SO DUMB OMG. You are really delusional, girl. OMG factor 8/10

One of the last point I've read. And this OMG level would be 100/10.

5. "Sasaengs collect their menstrual blood to give to EXO as present." - THIS IS DOWNRIGHT SICK. WHAT IS THE MENSTRUAL BLOOD FOR?! EVEN IF YOU DID GIVE THIS PRESENT, AND EXO DID RECEIVE IT, AND AFTER PROCESSING THIS WHOLE SITUATION IN YOUR BRAIN, DO YOU THINK THAT EXO WOULD EVEN KEEP THIS GIFT?! THEY WOULD THROW UP AND THROW IT AWAY THE MOMENT THEY SEE IT. THIS IS MAD GROSS AND AFTER SEEING THIS POINT, I CONCLUDE THAT NO SASAENGS ARE SANE. 

Look at happy Baek on the left. ♥

And look what he became thanks to the Sasaengs. >:(

Sasaengs, idols are normal human beings like you and if you want to be obsessed, do it at a stage where you don't hurt them. If you've gone past that extent, you're no longer a fan. You're just someone who creates public nuisance in getting unwanted attention from your idols and people around you. If Sasaengs continue to go on like this, the group would eventually have to stop activities and disband at the worst case scenario and all fingers would be pointed to you because you're the root of the problem.

Hopefully EXO can stay strong through this tough time. EXO HWAITING ♥

That's all for today folks. XOXO.

Hiruscar

September is coming to an end soon, and soon it's going to be October! Yet another month that holds lots of splendid surprises I hope! ♥

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Before I touch on Hiruscar, just gonna give a short post on a super short meetup with the ITE mates and lecturer this evening. We met up at Bugis and went to 鲜得来 (Xian De Lai) along Liang Seah Street, among the shophouses just behind Bugis Junction, and had a hearty dinner, followed by an awesome celebration platter as a belated birthday surprise for the birthday girl, Esther Lim Wei Sian ♥ I'll just let the pictures do the talking!

 Picture with my dearest friend for 2.5 years ♥ Adeline

 A lower quality picture taken with her LG. Mehehe >:)

 A group photo at 鲜得来... But the birthday girl's missing ><

 Celebration platter at Marble Slab! ♥♥ Absolutely delicious when eating together with these lovely peeps!

 With the ITE clique and Omma Goh! ♥

Sums up my meetup with these awesome people ♥

Although the meetup was short, still want to wish my dearest friend a happy belated birthday. Remember not to let anyone push you down or make you feel you're not worth anything because to me, you're one of the most invaluable precious gems to me. ♥ So continue to stay awesome that way alright! ♥ Love you to the moon and back always, sis!

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Before we went for dinner, I went to Guardian to get this really awesome gel (as the brand itself claims), and because it had many good ratings and reviews from sources like the makeupalley. Not only that, I had searched up on the net and this lady's review of it was what pushed me to get the product -> http://www.sabrinatajudin.com/2012/10/hiruscar-post-acne-gel-verdict.html . I mean, just take some time to read up on her review, and if every information she had posted about the product was true, it definitely seem like a product not to miss out on! Oh right, after saying so much, the product I'm talking about is HIRUSCAR. It is made in Thailand, and I don't know why but I just feel that all Thailand facial products are legit. For me, at least. And this is the product's website if you want to look up more on it!

http://www.hiruscar.com.my/

I got my first point of contact with this product when I saw its advertisement on the bus, and after that, when the latest issue of Teenage magazine hailed to the shelves, this product was featured and after some research, I think the money would be worth it if it worked. It costs SGD$19.90 for the Hiruscar Post Acne Gel. Of the same brand, there is also another gel which is for other scars(not related to acne) and it cost me SGD$25.80. As I just got the product today, I can't say for sure if it had awesome benefits but one thing is for sure, it smells pleasant and as it is a clear gel, it blends in perfectly onto the skin! One main thing I had read in the reviews is that you have to have patience in order for the product to take effect. Well, like the people always say, good results don't happen overnight, so I'm crossing my hands and hope that the product is helping me! ^^ Here's how the product looks like.

Top is Hiruscar Post Acne Gel and bottom is the normal Hiruscar Gel :)

Look closely on my right cheeks and you can see all the ugly scars I have, no thanks to pimples. :'(

So today marks my first day of trying out Hiruscar! I'll keep track of it and if it works! I'll post up pictures! So is you have any stubborn scars, try searching up on Hiruscar and decide whether to give it a try! ^^

That's all for today, love you pretty peeps! ♥♥♥

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好难得 (Rare)

A week of September has passed, and I am slowly picking myself up from where I fell down. It's not difficult like I imagined but I'm sure I'll be strong enough to get through this, with all the people I love and love me around. ♥

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Had an awesome day out today with ITE mates as well as a short karaoke-session in a long time. Sang so many songs and also found many new songs which represented my feelings at that moment. This song captured my feelings at that time, it's called 好难得 by 丁当. And the lyrics are:

爱让我们变得比单身愚笨
也让我们拥有从未的完整
问也不问就越陷越深
如果不是那个吻那年会更冷
相信变成了某种特殊天分
缘分只是最气人的天真
想念总是在夜里狂奔
特别像他着魔的眼神

好难得你遇见了对的人
难得你很认真不想太多去奋不顾身
好难得你爱上了对的人
可惜他不是你的可能

我们都曾以为爱就像青春
原来最难爱过的竟是黄昏
我们都爱过某个诗人
可是诗人都是平凡的人

好难得你遇见了对的人
难得你很认真不想太多去奋不顾身
好难得你爱上了对的人
可惜他不是你的可能

好难得我们遇见了对的人
难得好几辈子的好运才有几回完整
好难得我们爱上了对的人
就算他不是她最后的人
也祝他更勇敢爱别人

This part of the lyrics struck into my heart:

"好难得你遇见了对的人

难得你很认真不想太多去奋不顾身
好难得你爱上了对的人
可惜他不是你的可能"

Translated into English, it means:

"It is rare that you get to meet the right person

It is rare that you are serious and put in all your efforts, overlooking other factors

It is rare that you are in love with the right person

But too bad he / she is not possibly yours."

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Many times in our lives, we meet someone whom we can click with almost immediately, and when we start talking, it feels like we have known each other since the previous life. I myself have come across many people like that too, gained some and lost some. But sometimes, we don't really care enough to let the other party know that they have such important places in our lives, or we do care, but we don't show it enough.

Life isn't always smooth-sailing and you won't always meet people like that wherever you go. So you have to learn to treasure such people when you have them in your lives. People like that comes in many forms, your parents, your relatives, your friends or even your other half.

Like the song mentioned, it is rare that you will meet the right one, or the right friends, so hold them close to your heart when you meet them. Don't be stingy in giving them showers of love from yourself because they may be willing to do just as much for you. I'm experiencing the regret of not always letting and reassuring the people around me know that I'm thankful for their existence, and I have seen how a simple "I love you" or "You have a special place in heart" can salvage a friendship, relationship or marriage even at the last straw. SO DON'T BE STINGY AND START SHOWING YOUR LOVE. ♥ Time to wear your heart on your sleeve? ♥

The month of renewal.

After a long 8 months, September is finally here! I know it's kind of late to say this but happy September everyone!

September has been awesome (till now, that is) and every new day in September just brings me new joy and pleasant surprises. Many things happened in August and I'll try my best to move on with my life like how it should have been from the beginning. Kicked off my September with crazy study dates, and feel so happy to say that finally Semester 1 is officially over! Can't wait for the next few meetups which are coming up soon, like gathering with ITE mates and lecturer, jogging and Seoul Garden (contradicting, I know) with favourite sec school peeps, and also with some other awesome people! I'm still contemplating on whether to work or not because if I do, I would definitely ask for many off days and I don't think I can actually earn much money also. So I might as well just stay home and save on transport fares hehehe. I KNOW I'M A MAD CONTRADICTING PERSON.

Anyway, had a great picnic outing today with my favourite peeps in poly and although the start of the day was gloomy and all, everyone had a great day I hope! Most of them went to cycle while Jia Yi and I were left to guard our food against the ants. HAHAHA NO MORE OF THAT PLEASE. 

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This month is a month for me to re-think about everything that has been happening or are happening to me right now, and as I go on I can't keep making the wrong choices. It's true that we can always learn from our mistakes but most of the times life doesn't offer a second chance. Once you have missed something great, it's gone. Like spilled milk, you can't always regret about the things you didn't say or the emotions you didn't express because once the golden moment is over, it's over.

Now, I can understand why people always say that we love to go after the things that we can't have. Well, most of the times, at least. We always waste our tears on the people who don't want us, and leave behind those people who would always treat us like their precious gems. Too many things and people made me realise how true this is, and how stupid it is to commit it.

I've come to realise that you can't always build your happiness around everyone who comes around your life. Because if you do, when they leave, they will take your happiness with them. Their absence would equate to the loss of your happiness. And the worst part of it all? You are the only one who would be bearing all that pain and feeling that emptiness in your heart. Chances are, the other party would live a happier life than you. So, point is, LOVE YOURSELF MORE ♥ Do whatever makes you happy, so that you'll become a person who naturally attracts people - Not by looks, not by wealth, not by status, but by your personality. Looks may fade as you grow older, wealth may be depleted as time goes by, and status may be lost when you don't work hard enough to maintain it, but your personality stays with you through time. And if this is what attracts people to you, this would most probably be the reason why they want to stay with you even as time passes.

If you love to dance, take out some time to learn it. Save up some money for that kpop, hip hop or even contemporary dance you've always wanted to try, or even just search up some videos and learn from there. If you love to sing, sing all you want until you think you're perfect. If you love to draw, take some pieces of drawing paper or get yourself a sketchbook and sketch down all the happy things that happen to you. Do what makes you happy and love yourself. Stop living for others and start loving yourself. ♥ Negative people will always repel people from you, where happy people with positive thoughts attracts all the best buddies you will get in life.

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Forget the past.

Hello awesome beings ♥ Gonna rant about a short (or long :P) topic before I resume my revision. Hahaha. 

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Have you ever been betrayed? Betrayal may seem unimportant or even painless... Depending on who is doing it to you. Imagine a person who's so close to you doing it to you, your best friend, your other half, your clique, or even your family. That would suck a hell lot and probably you won't be able to trust them ever again. Well, for me, it took me 3 years before I found out who was truthful and honest, and who was not. You'd probably think by now the pain wouldn't be so painful because we don't talk anymore but to be honest the hurt DID stung me. And this is due to the fact that although we're no longer in contact, I still treated you like a friend, or good friend, at the very least. And what you did was far beyond what I could apprehend. Far absurd, hypocritical, and disgusting, to say the least. But I wouldn't call you a bitch because calling you that would degrade myself to your level, and I never ever want to meet or be a person like you again.

And what's worse than people like the one I've mentioned above is that, there are people who would seem to judge you even without knowing you personally, and able to spit out a whole lot of comments that I think even your parents or grandparents don't know about. And  it seems girls aren't the only ones doing these kinda things but guys as well, just wow. So if you ever meet someone like that, just go to that person like:

So stop, and look around you to see if you have any people around you who are like this. And if there are, ask yourself why are you keeping such people in your life? All of you out there are so beautiful and awesome and you ought to live a life full of awesome people, not people who go all out to pull you down. If they consider themselves as your friends, they wouldn't do these sort of things. And even if they do, they should have the decency to stay away from you. Show that they hate you, not act like they can't live without you and stab you with a fucking knife in your back. Everyone deserve an awesome life so don't let some irritable people get you down.

And for those people who are guilty or feeling guilty of committing such things. Please look at yourself in the mirror, take a deep breath and ask yourself, "Is there nothing else in your life that you can do?" Are you such a sadist that your only joy comes in belittling others? If that's the case, how sad your life must be. Learn to love others instead of trying to bring them down. DO YOU NOT HAVE A FUCKING LIFE? Is there nothing you're good at, except putting others down? What may seem fun to you now, will scar others for life. And the funny thing is that you don't seem to realise that. Just imagine what would happen if someone were to do the same thing to you?

THE PEOPLE WHO GOSSIP WITH YOU, MAY ONE DAY BE THE PEOPLE WHO GOSSIP ABOUT YOU. This sentence is certainly true, and I've got the taste of it. Knowing this fact after 3 years. 3 years of treating this person like a close friend, putting most things ahead of her. Now, I regret but since I can't change the past, I'll just move on and pray for us to not meet again.

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So people, live your lives doing something that will benefit and help others of yourself, you'll definitely feel much better! ♥ Bye for now.

4 days into Aug♥

Hello to beautiful August and to all the beautiful beings born in this month ♥

Have been tempted to blog these few days but just can't find the perfect topic to talk about. So I've decided to talk about a friend of mine who just recently got engaged. ^^

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Before that, just wanna post up to few pictures to summarize this whole week! ♥

Wore our first ever formal wear in poly ♥

So this was supposed to be a picture of a manager with her employees, with me playing as the bad one. ><

And some really crazy photoshoot session with Nat in KFC ♥ (LOL)

So yeap, basically that was how the whole week went by, presentations followed by even more presentations. :D

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Couldn't find any pictures of us AT ALL, so just kop-ed this picture from FB. Haha. That pretty lady on the extreme right, Tania, just got engaged recently and I'm feeling so proud of and happy for her. :') Finally she has found her Mr Right. ♥ We were in the same class for Sec 3 and 4, but I didn't exactly know her very well from the moment we knew each other, neither did I bothered to make the effort to get to know her because, well, she had her friends and I had mine. But somehow, after our trip to China, we got to know each other more and realised we have a decent couple of things in common, such as music, singing, and etc. After we got back, we started to hang out more often, together with our groups and friends, and we eventually became a clique. She was always there for me supporting me through my hard times, and we would always hang out after school to talk about stupid and weird stuffs. Our nights weren't spared as well thanks to our long and nonsensical conversations at night. Hahaha. However, after our sec 4 life, we drifted apart as she was busy with her studies and I was busy with mine. We were preparing for our O levels and rarely had the time to meet up. During that period, there was a point in time where our friendship seemed non-existent. This was due to mainly miscommunications, and I always felt that although she had all the time in the world, she didn't bothered to make the effort to call, text or even ask me out, whereas she could do that for her other friends. I guess it was just my immature thinking at that time. But I'm glad that from time to time, even though it is really rare, we still contact one another, or manage to bump into one another.

Tania, really sorry for thinking that way. I have realised that you have a life on your own too, and as the paths we've walked are no longer the same, we won't have much common things to talk about either. Girl, I'm really proud of you for coming this far to where you are standing right now and I'm sure more beautiful things are waiting for you. ♥ Continue to be an awesome, sweet, nice and kind girl to everyone else that you will meet alright? ♥

And to Tania's new fiance, a person of her species is rare to come by now, and when she falls in love she falls HARD. I don't know if you've ever made her cried before, but from the day she becomes your fiancee, I hope that the only times you make her cry from now on will be those of joy, laughter, and happy surprises. And each time you make her cry, be sure that you're there with her, not just to catch her tears, but to share her happiness with her. She is a really, if I can say it, dumb person that will trust anything and anyone easily, and that includes the words of anyone whom she gets close to. Really, like you just have to look her in the eyes and tell her that pigs can fly, and I'm sure she will believe even that (okay abit exaggerated). Don't let anyone hurt her. And since you have decided to place her as the most important woman in your life and heart, you must be ready to bear her nonsense, and her overly obsession with TOP. She also loves to watch those really stupid sitcom shows like FRIENDS and laugh her ass off for I don't know what reason, so you have to endure that as well. And when she sees those super sad shows, she will cry. Also, when she sees a cockroach back facing down and squirming, SHE FINDS IT CUTE. See all these nonsense? Yeap, you've got to tolerate it with her. So since Tania decides to place you as her most important man, you have to live up to that reputation. And you have to make well and keep all the promises you make to her, because she simply deserves it. So yeap. And one last thing I must say, DON'T EVER BREAK HER HEART. Because if you do, she will crumble, for real. So don't try it.

Best wishes to you both and HAPPY ENGAGEMENT! ♥♥♥ Love you Tania! 

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO THE DEAREST ELEPHANT ♥

Hello beings! I'm back to blogging after days of not knowing what to blog about and after 2 submissions and 1 class test! Feeling like 30% of the schoolwork load has been off of me, feel so great. But more submissions are coming up and followed by a series of presentations so gotta pull up my socks and continue to work hard. Today won't be a long naggy post, neither will I start ranting (like how I ALWAYS do, hehehe), instead I just wanna use up this entry for today for my dearest girl/elephant/bumblebee/twin/whatever you call it! So here is a reeeeeally brief picture I generated using SmatyArt from MS powerpoint, cause I don't know of any photo-editing software for Windows so please make do with this uh! Hehe!

This is the best background I can find to complement this SmartArt, heehee.

Alright, so here's a brief summary of all the 9 pictures and what has happened in between them~

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Pic 1 - This was the first picture we took at Eco food court when we first met in ITE College West! Hahaha can't believe we were already such incorrigible camwhores from the first day of school. Hoho. This is just one of the many pictures we bombed throughout the orientation. I still cannot forget that on the first day of school, this girl was so fixated on her phone that I felt I was talking to myself throughout the whole time! Her five senses were totally on the phone, SERIOUS NO JOKE. Haha but that was also the start to our crazy and fun friendship!♥

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Pic 2 - This was the picture taken on our first clique outing to Clementi Mall and my virgin trip to Koi! If I'm not wrong, this should be about a week into school, and this day was just filled up so much fun and memories. Verzen and HuiHui were bickering as usual, Melvin was in his own world practically, and the both of us and Ji Yun were the only people who found the Koi really interesting and kept talking about it, hahaha. And I remembered the whole lot of us fell sick the day after. ><

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Pic 3 - This picture was taken months after we know each other and we were already best friends at this point of time. This marks the wrap-up of our first ever Life Skills project called "Look Good Feel Good", and so glad our group got the best comments and gradings (I suppose) amongst the whole class! Woohoo! I was playing the wicked witch, and you were playing the gangster ah lian. HAHAHA. We had built another milestone of memories through this project as we met up in Chinatown to film the short video, get props, stayed back late in school to decorate the "wings" and "halo" for Ji Yun, and also to film the fighting scene of you and Valerie which made us laugh for a couple of hours hahaha. This was also where Melvin made his awesome transformation. ^^v The Hui sisters also stayed back and helped us in shooting the last few parts of the video. Just awesome. ♥

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Pic 4 - I can't really remember when this zoo trip outing was but I guess it was around the same time as our LPD project, so pardon me if I'm wrong! >< Hahaha. We came here with the purpose to get some inspiration for our ILT project, but instead end up getting zero information at the end, and eventually we ended the day with buying a birthday present for Eileen. Hahaha.

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Pic 5 - I KNOW WHEN THIS PICTURE WAS TAKEN - 22 JULY 2011! Hahaha, it was a fruitful day because all our planning and efforts have paid off! And even though we didn't get to see your tears (sadly), I really hoped you have enjoyed your 19th birthday surprise + celebration with us! And once again, after 2 years, sorry for the white lie that we were gonna bring you to the food court ah. Food court, soon. Hahaha!

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Pic 6 - This was around half a year into the months that we know each other I guess! And it was the first official outing our clique went out, hehe. I can't remember what the main purpose of the outing was, but I remembered that we were busy taken gazillions polaroids over and over again until Verzen eventually finished all the films she brought out and bought. Hahaha, another awesome day and memories made with you all. ♥

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Pic 7 - Between the last picture till this picture, we had a misunderstanding briefly before our LPD project discussion, and things started to turn ugly between the both of us. Friendships were broken and faces were torn (撕破脸), and eventually our twin friendship broke. We no longer smiled in class, no longer talked, and don'r even make eye contact in class at all. Although till now I don't get what had happened (cause everyone forgot about it, haha) but we managed to talk things through and became friends yet again. ♥ This picture was taken when we came back for a briefing for our orientation programme which we were helping out for this School of Business. This was taken with my iPod touch! Which had... Unfortunately... Disappeared in my house LOL.

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Pic 8 - And again, between the previous picture up till this picture, we had another fight, AGAIN. Only that this second fight made more regrets for us. >< This was taken during our long-awaited meetup since we entered poly and our ice-cream date at Cold Stone Creamery! ♥

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Pic 9 - Finally, this picture marks the last day we may ever step into ITE College West. And I was really happy that day despite being sick because at the very least, we left with our friendship being as strong as it was, through our times in school together.

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Soooooo, HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY DEAREST GIRL, ONG CHIA LEE! ♥ Haha. If there was anything I would like to change in ITE, it would be to amend all our misunderstandings and fights that we had, as I had many regrets from those unnecessary fights, like losing the chance to have a fun and awesome holiday in Taiwan with you, and we were behaving like as if we were complete strangers throughout the whole trip, and not to mention, losing an awesome best friend like you. :( But one day, when I was serving customers emotionlessly at my IAP workplace, a whatsapp from you came and soon, we started talking like as if we have never fought at all. And before we know it, we were joking around, gossiping to one another, complaining to each other about our IAP, and also sharing happy and sad things that goes through our daily lives. :') That whatsapp, up till now, was a really important thing that I'm thankful for. Because of our similar circumstances, you were able to understand my plight during IAP and gave me the suitable advices which I needed. And thanks to you, I had an awesome 19th birthday celebration. Haha. Thanks for being such an awesome and nice friend from the start till the end (minus away the times that we fought). You are a very important friend in my life that I could never do without. I'm really sorry that due to our misunderstandings, I couldn't celebrate your 20th with you, and because we're all busy, I can't meet up with you for your 21st as well. :( But I promise we'll have a belated celebration for you soon alright! I want my panda too! Hehe! I know things may be rough for you now, and many things may seem unfair, but that is life. The most important thing is to never feel you are not worthy of anything good. I LOVE YOU BESTIE-ELEPHANT ♥♥♥ Pictures speak a lot more than words actually do so I'll cut short the wordings and throw you some pictures! ^^

AND ENOUGH OF THE PICTURES. HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY PRETTY!

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