The reason why I've left my blog alone for so long is because I didn't have time, didn't know what to blog about, and because of 'D.R.A.M.A'. Yeap, happens all the time whenever cyberspace is involved. This makes me think that maybe I shouldn't be so forthcoming when I'm expressing my thoughts. But heck, since now I've decided to re-do up my blog, I'm going to rant about things which I just simply feel like I have to. :D Sides, Twitter's word limit really isn't enough for my rants, I'm full of them.
Shall rant about being emotional for today, heh.
EMO, everyone's probably heard of this word before, and maybe gone through a few stages of their lives, drowning themselves in alcohol and whatnot, feeling all emotional and thinking, "I'm better off dead." To tell the truth, I've felt that way too, ages ago, when I was going through what they say, the lowest peak of my life. I had friends all around me, cheering me up and giving me words of encouragement. I honestly appreciated them for everything, but I didn't know what I wanted at that time of time. I just thought that dying was the only way out. So I can really say I know how it feels like. But I'm super glad I wasn't one of the many people out there who'd really went ahead with suicide.
Being emotional was kind of like the trend in the recent past, and everyone's walking around with a penknife tucked in their bags, clothes, and taking it out from time to time just to slit themselves. I really thought it was cool at that time when I myself, did it, but now looking back, it was REALLY DUMB. I mean, honestly, how does slitting your own wrists benefit you? Does it solve anything in the reality? It doesn't. People around will just think, how dumb and 'soft' you are, slitting wrists over such a small thing. But you'd obviously feel like, "Who the hell are you to comment when you don't even have the slightest clue of what's happening to me?" Well, it's true. 9 out of 10 people who criticize you may not know what you're going through, but if you're looking at yourself from their perspective, maybe you'd feel that way too. Emotions kills, especially when you decide to let them get over your head.
When you feel like things can never ever get better, always remember to look at the bright side! There are always two sides to EVERYTHING. Whenever something seems as bad as they can, there will always be some good behind it. Take a failed relationship for an example, your boyfriend left you, da da da... So? If he isn't that good, he probably don't deserve your tears, much less the cuts on your wrists. You have to clear the space of the bad and rotten ones before the one who's worth it come along, right? Next example, a broken family. I've seen people coming from broken families leading their lives happily. I'm sure no one's family will be 100% perfect all the time. There's bound to be some quarrel and disagreements here and there. If you're a teenager, you'll probably feel so darn stressed out and thinking that moving out from your family is the best bet. But seriously? That's a big NO. Just think of all the bills you have to pay when you're outside alone, no one will ask you how you did in school, no one will cook you meals just because you said you feel like having them, no one's going to clean up your ass after you mess with the law. NO ONE. Can you really leave after considering all these? No matter how broken your family is, no matter what hurtful words your folks hurl at you, always remember you are part of their lives. If they didn't care about you and want you dead, they probably wouldn't raise you up till now.
I've realised when we're emotional we tend to say things which we don't care, and didn't think would be so hurtful, at that time. However, the after effects can be lasting. Saying things like "Go to hell" or such, to people around you when shit happens, is the worse thing you can do. Imagine you're the one comforting a friend or a family member, would you like to hear those words being shouted at you? I don't think so. Maybe you think that since they want to stick around you with your nonsense, they should be able to tolerate this level of nonsense. But everyone has limits. NEVER TAKE THEIR CONCERN FOR GRANTED. People get tired of saying the same things over and over again. Be thankful that they're still sticking around you when things happen, because they aren't obliged to. They're making a choice to stick around, not an obligation.
So yeah, actually, I don't really know what point I'm trying to make here, but more like not to take anyone for granted. Hah. Whenever you're feeling down, think of the things that carried you this far. And always tell yourself that suicide isn't an only way, but one of the MANY CHOICES which you have. Suicide, slitting wrists, are seriously the dumbest, silliest, most nonsensical choice a person should choose. There will always be someone out there who'll be willing to listen to your cry for help when you need it. Be it your fam, friends, or professional help. There's always a way out, and there's always a second chance. Never be too sad at something unhappy for too long, because it's simply not worth it. You, yes YOU, deserve so much more than crying alone. True, the time won't stop for you, the globe won't stop spinning for you, the cars won't stop moving for you, but someone out there will definitely be more than willing to offer you their help. CAUSE YOU'RE SOOOO WORTH IT. ♥ ♥ ♥
Finally finished my rant!! Feel so happy typing all these out. Heh, stay tuned for my next rant!
Good night beautiful people♥
Good night beautiful people♥