Last page before December comes ♥

Last post before December arrives! Really looking forward to it as it's the year-end and that's when we look back on our lives and see how much we've grown and changed in just the past few months. ♥ And there's something awesome installed for me on the eve of Christmas, hehehe ♥♥♥

I would say that this has been a year of ups and downs, well, more to the downs than usual. I don't want to be superstitious or what but maybe because it's the year 20-13 (Thirteen is one of the 'feared' numbers in Chinese tradition as it bodes bad luck, right? I think...)

I've received and gained a lot in these 11 months, like getting a chance to study in the poly which I've always wanted to be studying in, instead of paying for a private diploma (I DON'T LOOK DOWN ON PEOPLE WHO DO THAT), but I get to see the fruits of my labour in ITE, and it tastes really sweet because even though I'm not one of those top students in my cohort or whatsoever, I feel good going to school having the mindset that there are always going to be nice people around who's willing to help me and receive help from me. That's something that makes me feel really happy. ♥ Having positive thoughts mentally before you head out for the day can really make a difference! Try it! ^^

Just came back from my F&B test today and I felt that I did just fairly okay. >< Well, what's over is over! Gotta keep moving on! Next up, Marketing paper! Which is on Friday at 8pm omg. Just kill me. Paper at 8... Never had it but kinda looking forward to it HAHAHA cause it's a first and anything that's a first always sounds intriguing to the human brain doesn't it? ^^ For me at least hahaha.

OH... And I had a wisdom teeth extraction just days ago and I'm just gonna post about what happened inside that dental room......... WHICH I HONESTLY DREADED SO MUCH TO GO IN. ><

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WEDNESDAY 

11:00AM

So here I am, sitting in the coffeeshop and having my(very full and sumptuous) lunch thinking when is the next time I can eat as carefree as this time after my extraction. I honestly went on and read about so much bad reviews and those after-effects of wisdom teeth extraction and the fact that the previous dentist told me I had to extract all 4 DID NOT HELP AT ALL.

11:30AM

So here I am sitting in front of the receptionist in Q&M, and she's busy finding forms for my mother and me to sign, apparently to get consent for the extraction to take place. And the next thing I know, I'm off to meet the dentist for the first time (Note: It's the first time because another dentist was the one who had checked my teeth the other time). After he checked my teeth, he gave me a really detailed explanation and what was really going on with me that caused my toothache, SOMETHING THE PREVIOUS DENTIST DID NOT GO THROUGH WITH ME ABOUT. Ugh still feeling pissed about that. The dentist, Mr Ahmad said that apparently I have all 4 wisdom teeth inside on my mouth, 3 of which are impacted (simply means that they are not growing correctly or aren't growing well in the teeth = EXTRACTION ALERT), and the left side of my cheek, the side which had been giving me problems, had an impacted wisdom tooth on the bottom and one simple one on the top. Mr Ahmad advised me that it'd be best to remove the ones which are causing me the toothache for now, and it would be ideal to remove the simple one because for now it's easy to extract. So after consideration, I decided to go ahead with extracting just 2, as I still needed to have a healthy side to chew my food after the extraction. The other 2 teeth, as I was told, the one on the top is impacted quite badly, that's why I can't feel it, because my gum has grown over it, so it's gonna be more difficult to try and extract it. >< Sucks to be me.

(MY HEART WAS LITERALLY THUMPING AT THIS POINT IN TIME...)

Then I was asked to lie down and be given a local anesthesia, which is when they inject the numbing thing into my gums to make the procedure painless for me. Dr Ahmad first applied 2-3 times of the raspberry numbing cream, and by the third time he applied one side of my mouth was already numb. AND THEN I SAW IT. 4 SYRINGES. I literally screamed OH GOD inside of my head because I'm seriously a scaredy cat especially when it comes to needles. So I just looked at the syringe going into my mouth, and honestly I felt ZERO feelings for the first 2 syringes, but at the third needle, I felt the pain and I wriggled in my seat. Then it came down to the last one which was painless as well. After that, I was asked  to sit outside and wait for the numbing to take effect before they could carry on with the extraction.

11:40AM - 11:50AM

I swear 10 minutes really never felt that long in my entire life. I was literally trying to feel and calm down my own heartbeat when I was sitting outside. And when I tried to communicate with my sister, she couldn't understand a single word I was saying. It was considered awesome for me at that time as that meant that the effect was coming. Then time's up, I was asked to go in for the extraction.

11:50AM - 12:30PM

These 40 minutes were the worst I had to go through in my life. I was literally seated there, and although the nurse told me I could listen to my music to help calm me down, it's really quite pointless because I had to remove one to hear what the dentist and the nurse was saying. To be really really honest, I would be lying if I said there were no pain involved. THIS IS SERIOUSLY A LIE. Okay maybe it's just me since I have a really small (and troublesome) jaw. The dentist was having difficulties trying to extract one of the tooth (I didn't know which) and because it was so difficult, he took out 2 syringes to numb it AGAIN before continuing to extract it. So imagine I was seated there, one of my ears listening to the music and another naked to the conversation of those 2, and having my mouth moving back and forth because it was that difficult to remove. I could feel the pressure of them pulling my tooth, literally, but after some bouts of pulling, their hands left me and I heard 'DONE'. SO BASICALLY YOU FEEL THE PULLING AND ALL BUT NOT THE END RESULT. It was a horrendous procedure but really thankful for the dentist because he tried to make it as painless as possible and the nurse for holding my hands throughout the entire procedure. YES I WAS THAT SCARED. And then the next thing I know I saw two disgusting looking teeth with super long roots staring back at me. It was really a burden off of my shoulders! Then I was given some post-operation tips and given some medication, FOLLOWED BY 7 DAYS MC and off I go back home.

40 MINUTES IS REALLY A LONG TIME.

Conclusion?

Well, I think that the dentists were quite professional, it's just that my teeth was really damn troublesome for them to extract. Basically how you know for sure you have a wisdom tooth is to touch your teeth to check it for yourself! Separate your teeth to 4 quarters, from the front teeth, and start counting. A quarter with 8 teeth means for sure that you have wisdom teeth, and they usually start growing from the age of 17 - 25. Basically that's when you become 'wise', or so they say, and that's why it's called Wisdom Tooth LOL. BUT, it doesn't mean that when you have only 7, you do not have wisdom tooth. It just means you may have impacted ones. Like the top right wisdom tooth of mine, and that would require more trouble to extract! Not everyone with wisdom teeth has to go for extraction indefinitely, because most people have well-defined jaws which is able to keep all the teeth in it straight, so there's simply no need for extraction. But if it is causing you pain then please go and check it out because it will turn to infection, which is what happened to me, and worse, turn into tooth decay, which is seriously an ugly sight.

From what I had read about online, the after-effects of wisdom teeth extractions are usually swelling and pain, which I DO NOT HAVE. So I guess it differs from each individuals so don't be scared to extract it just solely for this reason! ^^ Happy to say that I'm able to consume hard foods now hehehehe. Just 3 days after my extraction! For now everything has been going well for me but I'll have to visit the dentist again to remove the stitches of the operation site. So hopefully all goes well! *PRAYS TO GOD*

Oh and don't be afraid that you can only go for local anesthesia! For those people who wants to extract all 4 at once, or are really afraid of the pain, you can research more on other private clinics which provides general anesthesia! Point to note: Do your research! Hahaha. Finishing off with some pictures and enjoy yours weekends and the arrival of DECEMBER! ♥♥♥

I know it's really gross but yeap!!!!! ><

Got this from the nurse as a 'keepsake'... Uh...

ZERO SWOLLEN CHEEKS! Just really numb gums!

AND SOME REALLY RANDOM SHOTS FOR TODAY!

Don't I look awesome? HAHAHAHA.

MY FRIEND DID A REALLY ZUN POSE. HAHAHA.

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The truth about Death.

Have you ever thought about death? For me, I think about it from time to time. Not that I'm suicidal or anything, but my mind just wander off and makes me think about death. When I say thinking about death I mean just everything about it - why it happens, how it happens, what leads to that and what will possibly happen after death?

I just got a sudden flashback from when I was just about 7 to 8 yeats' old? I remember lying down on the bed and just looking at my mum and dad who was already asleep by then, and had my first thoughts about the questions of death because if I'm not mistaken, that was the first time I watched a show where a person passed away. I thought about that show, and the sadness that comes from the family after that, and I thought about where the person would go to. 

"Lying down there in that wooden space, wouldn't he be scared? He just had a fall and slipped, and then fell into a deep sleep, why did he family start to burn joss sticks for him? What happens to him after that? How come he doesn't appear in the show anymore?"

And then I thought about, what if one day, that happened to me too? What if I passed away, and there is really nothing after that? No soul, nothing, just a dead shell? Would I be able to see my family members, friends again? Can I re-live the life that I was having as a human, with the people I love with me? And then I remembered about this show set in the olden times. Basically a very normal man just fell ill and passed away, and when he died his soul flew to a dark and cold place, where an old later makes a concoction of some normal looking soup, and lets him drink it, After which, he just vanished into thin air. I had read about people who died, before they recairnate, they would be asked, or forced to drink this soup called the 孟婆汤. Anyone who drinks it will forget everything that has happened to them in the mortal realm, so that they may recairnate into a new life. When I think about the memories about me, my friends, and the people I've once admired will all be gone from my life, I'll cry. It's such a saddening thought and just really upsetting. I even thought of earning lots of money in the future so that when I die, I can pass the money to the person so they wouldn't have to erase my memories. Haha. But I guess what's really worse about forgetting the memories of those I loved are the regrets of not saying the things that I should've said when I had the time or when the person was still around.

I had attended a few funeral of my relatives, and one that really had me crying was my maternal grandmother's. Although I was not really close to her, she loved me as her grandchild and always showered me with affection despite only being able to lie on her bed. I had vague memories of her still being able to move around when I was just about 4 years' old? Those memories just hit me hard on the final day of the funeral, when my mum kept quiet throughout the journey to the location, and watching her cried for her mum makes me think about her pain that she has to go through. My mum was about 50 years' old when my grandma passed away. How would it feel to live for 50 years with someone you love dearly, and that person showering you with unconditional love, just had to leave you to fend for yourself, forever? It was a pain I couldn't imagine.

I honestly feel that too many people are taking each other for granted and taking their own life as something that isn't in any way miraculous to them. I really hate it when people who wants to commit suicide says things like, "No one will care after I die. Because no one did when I was alive. No one cared for me." COME ON. Everyone has a meaning for their existence in their lives. Even a newborn baby, who may unfortunately not have the adequate stamina to maintain his life, and passed away, his parents, grandparents, who were all awaiting his arrival, would be so so sad. What more to a child who has came into this world and lived with his parents? If you were not precious to them they would have dumped you when they could. And even if your parents were some psychotic people who really couldn't care less about you and your welfare, what about your friends? How would they feel if someone they used to be so close to, someone they used to text, just disappear from their lives? Wouldn't they be sad? Life is so precious, everyday in the hospital, so many patients are struggling just to stay alive for even 1 minute more than what they are given. Those who have their lives, why can't you treasure it like those patients would? Everyone deserves to live, even criminals, they deserve to stay alive so that they can receive the punishment for their mistakes and hopefully turn over a new leaf. For people who are beyond control, death will find its way to them, like the people given death sentences.

LIFE IS PRECIOUS. TELL THE PEOPLE THAT YOU LOVE, YOU LOVE THEM, WHEN YOU CAN. Don't wait for time to make the people you have become the people you had.