Inside-Out or the other way round?

Back to blogging! (A really short post today)

You know what motivates me to blog the most? The motivation used to be about me letting out all my rantings on a social platform where not many people I know would bother to read, and ironically, now what motivates me to blog is actually when I know people are taking time out to reading my blog and about the things that I bother to talk about. You guys are awesome. <3 p="">
Today's topic shall be about inner beauty? Hmm. For myself, I don't really see myself as someone that awesome. I'm just one of those typical girls who go like, "I'm not pretty. I'm not perfect. I'm fat." But what I say about myself are actually legit and not about gaining attention or saying just for the sake of hearing people say, "Oh, no you're so pretty, so perfect, so slim. BLAH BLAH." I know many people out there who talk about their insecurities in order to hear people comfort them. So what's my point?

I mean, you're born this way. Tall, short, skinny, fat, you're this way because you're born this way. To me, ugly doesn't come from people who look different from those typical human beings you see out there but what your personality is made up of. I mean, no one should be called ugly. No one even has the right to call another person ugly. There are so many cases of teenagers committing suicide or self-mutilating themselves just because of bullies who claim themselves as 'upper beings' decides to be assholes and shoot nonsensical words out of their mouths.

People, no one has the ability to make you feel insecure except yourself. If you decide to be ignorant of what others say, your life will definitely be so much better. But I'm not saying we should totally neglect our outer shell because no matter how hard we try to avoid it, first impressions are unavoidable in this era or age. Like for example, if you know your face is oil-prone and all, make just a slight effort to bring facial wipes and wipe the shine away when you feel or know they are obvious. There aren't any ugly people out there, just real lazy ones!

So people, go out there and try to do something to make you feel healthier and better!

First week.

Here I am, readers~ ^^ Here to blog about my first week of school at TP and some other random stuffs.

I don't know if other schools have this tradition or not, but TP's first week of school is supposedly meant to be strictly lectures, and I guess it was a good arrangement for us students cause this actually allowed us to get a better understanding of the modules and also mix around with other coursemates. So currently the modules I'm taking are MicroEconomics, Business Computing Skills, Writing and Presentation Skills, Introduction to Hospitality and Tourism, and also Organisational Behaviour. I find most of the modules quite intriguing and interesting, so hopefully when tutorials and homeworks start and pile up, I'll be able to cope with it!

Everything in school has been awesome, the coursemates, the lecturers, the environment, the classrooms, and not to mention 1K05, everything is just plain awesome and I don't have any complaints. I just love everything about TP and what it has brought and offered me till now. What I've realised is that TP is really a school that cares for each students. They don't just stereotype ITE students as useless bunch of people but really try to communicate with us and make sure we are coping well. There was an ITE Info Session talk yesterday a few hours after lessons and to be honest, I found the talk to be really encouraging and definitely productive. Just in an hour or two, my confidence level built up again and I'm starting to feel that coming to TP was a perfect choice. I love how caring all the lecturers can be to actually bother to take time out just for us. TP's awesome, nuff' said. <3 p="">
The whole of this week could just be classified as very packed and crammed. I had to rush to get my ITE grad robe, attend the IT roadshow, attend the CCA fair, and etc. But I love having these kinda lifestyle. I really can't be cooped up all at home... I mean, who likes that right? And I don't know whether it's because of the new schedule, but I'm down with flu and slight fever right now. So people please please take good care of your health! Getting sick isn't a fun thing. I'd spent like 2 tissue boxes trying to blow out whatever is causing this irritating feeling in me but it doesn't seem to help one bit. And watching the last ep of SunHee couple doesn't really help with my flu.

After their eight months' long on-screen marriage, Sunhwa and Kwanghee has officially ended their marriage life. Out of all the three couples which started around the same time for their season, they were a couple that I didn't have much interest in because I knew neither groups, and wasn't interested in any of them. But after seeing tweets and posts of several kpop forums, I decided to watch a few episodes and see how I'll like it, and apparently I just got hooked to them. They were such a lively couple, with so many cute fights and romantic moments that are etched in my mind. I love how innocent and naive both of them are, and how they handle each situations. I feel that towards the last few episodes, the two of them really badly wanted to break out of their restrictions and just expressed the feelings they have for one another. They just look so tired to continue with each week knowing that they would be ending soon. And my heart just sank when I saw Sunhwa and Kwanghee crying while he was reading out his confession letter to her. :'( It was a really sad scene. This shows that we shouldn't all spend our time on fighting. Because before we know it, the time left to love may be so short that you may be filled with regrets. Goodbye SunHee couple. Take a breather, and if you decide to get together (like the hopes of all your shippers including me), just go ahead and do so! ^^

So that's all for today folks!

Been days since I've blogged, so here I am~ :D

Was actually planning to just talk about my orientation in TP but a new topic sort of came to attention today, so here it is, it's about SG's very own veteran actor, Huang Wen Yong.

He was a shining star in Mediacorp, and he always caught my attention in whichever drama I saw him acting in. My first (and longest) impression of him was in Holland Village, when he was acting as one of the main protagonist's ex-beau, as Lin Jing Cai. His role in that movie was a devoted (sort of) man, loyal, and stubborn man who's been in love with two woman from the start till the end, whom he both lost to other guy. Although he was so annoyingly stubborn in that movie, he was always trying to do his best to help the women he love and that's the reason why I love him in that show. Another show that got my attention was Your Hand In Mine, where he acted alongside his co-partner for Holland Village as well. I just love the fact that he and Chen Li Ping has such a comfortable vibe about them acting as a married couple. It's like they're meant for this industry to be in parental figures. He always looks so fatherly giving his on-screen daughter advices and caring for them. :') The first news that I got about his passing on was on Twitter, through a friend's tweet and I don't know, I just feel a sudden surge of sadness when I read about that news. It was all just too sudden. One by one my familiar actors have left this world - MC King, Ah Nan, and now Huang Wen Yong. :'( It just pains me to know that he's no longer around. He's lived for 6 decades through his life now, and I hope that his road to wherever he's heading to next will be smooth and easy. To one of my dearest actor, 一路好走...

People, life is precious, so treasure each day, each hour, each minute, and even each second with the dear people you have right now. Life's too short to be fighting with the people God gave you. Loving and caring is easier and more worth it. <3 font="">

Orientation Day 1

So this day has finally arrived. I'd been somehow looking forward to this day but when it arrived, I was hoping I could skip the whole orientation thing and just sleep till the 22nd, where school officially opens. I was glad that didn't happen though. I was still feeling all butterflies in my stomach until I met up with the peeps, and we were all talking about whether we'd be in the same class or not. Sadly, we had all been separated into different classes, the others in 03 and 07 where I was in 05. :( My steps just got heavier by each step and eventually we had to split and went to our class. It was a difficult start to me because I'm not really good with mixing with new people, especially in such a crowded place. But the first SL that talked to me made me feel better. He's SL GL, the one whom I thought was our lecturer at first glance. :X Subsequently, we watched videos, performances (really awesome ones) and then started cheering for the business school.

Following that, it was soon lunch and bonding time and we were to introduce ourselves to one another in a circle. It was just fun and awesome and the games made me know a little more about my SLs and also my new classmates, who are just so amazingly lovable. And I must say that I think my class has the most number of good-looking people! *Proud* So after lunch we just had our course-bonding time in LT21 and all the SLs' crazy ideas just exploded and all the witty dances just came out. Basically it was just an awesome day. Back at home that day, the Whatsapp group created for us by our SLs were continuously spamming and everyone was just so excited for meeting up the next morning. Just awesome to see everyone so bonded. Of course, I was one of the quiet ones. Hee.

Orientation Day 2

So soon, it was a new day and we were back at the lecture theatre, talking and chatting about everything and anything. We practised our cheers, and got to meet our careperson, Ms Sheila. She looked much like an awesome person with her bubbly self. :D So we got our timetable (YAY cause not every polys get their timetable printed for them) and well, I guess I just have a love-hate relationship with the timetable? But thankfully next week was just a lecture week so the hours would be just short.

After some bonding, lunch, painting and photo-taking session in the class, we were off marching to the Bedok Reservoir for the TP Regatta. I have to say, the distance was quite okay actually. Not as bad as I had expected. But the haze there was really not a joke. Design school beside us were cheering non-stop, whether it was for themselves or for other schools who won, and I just feel that their trophy for Best Spirited was well-fitted. Good job for that! ^^ Business school regrettedly lost what could have been the 9th consecutive win for Regatta challenge, but I'm sure the freshies next year would be able to win this glory back!

"Business school will win the war next time, WILL WIN THE WAR NEXT TIME!"

Everything was just fast and time spent with our 4 dearest SLs passed too soon too. Because of them and my lovable classmates, orientation seemed much fun than how my friends from other polys described, and I seriously wished that the orientation would last for about a week or so? :( Really wanna thank the SLs for taking so much care and effort for us, from ensuring constantly that we're hydrated, to making us warm farewell cards. :'D Awesome bunch of people. Hopefully we'll see them more often in Biz school!

And now, I can't wait for school to start on Monday cause I need to get my brain working again. It's too filled with all the Running Man and WGM (Not that I'm gonna stop watching them), and I need to fill them up with school work! Haha. Sounds crazy but I miss doing school work, really do. :( I still hate projects tho.

So yeap, phrase of today is, "Love yourself and also the people around you." <3 nbsp="" p="">

New start.

Everyday, someone out there in the world would be trying out something new for once in their lives. For me, that new start will begin on 18th April'13, at Temasek Polytechnic.

Everyone knows that being in a polytechnic in Singapore may be a very common choice for most O-level grads, and for those who already has a vision of what they want to do as a career in their future. Some people go into polytechnics in haste, and end up wasting months or even years just to get out of a course that they thought they'd like but end up regretting. Polytechnic has been my goal since I was 16. Four years ago, when our school had the chance to visit TP for some Bio Anatomy lesson, I knew I wanted to study right here and get a diploma. But the road to TP wasn't an easy one.

After finishing the N-level examinations, I got an unexpectedly decent cert without failing any subjects at all, when I expected my Humanities and Mathematics to fail. I didn't think much after I finished my papers at that time because I didn't know what paths would be offered to me if I had failed my N-levels. All I knew was that I just needed to finish those papers and get out of the exam hall so I could have time for myself. My aim at that time was already at TP, but I didn't even bother to do any research on how to get into a polytechnic. I thought that luck was the element that elevated me to a place in Secondary 5 so I should just take that chance. At that time, my thought was, 'How hard could the O-levels be when the N-levels is so easy?' At that time, I was the kind of person who wouldn't think before jumping into any chances offered to me because I'm just like someone sitting on the fence, wherever the wind blows, I'll automatically move towards that direction at all. I had dreams and goals, but I wasn't realistic and didn't work hard enough.

During my Sec 5 period, many incidents happened and I eventually got worse grades than I initially had. I had to face people whom I didn't want to for a whole year, I had to face family problems, I had to face conflicts between my clique, and most importantly, I had to face up to reality. It wasn't until then that I realised life wasn't always a bed full of roses. Even if it was, there were still thorns in the environment. I realised there and then that there were so many concepts in my weaker subjects that I have never bothered to study on. From important subjects like Mathematics and Science, to other electives like Geography and Food and Nutrition. I fell really hard and couldn't do anything else but to memorise by heart everything that I have learnt. Unfortunately, Mathematics and Science aren't subjects that I could actually breeze through by memorisation. I had to apply the right formula at the right time. But I only woke up to reality after I had gotten my results. My cert was the ugliest thing I had ever seen. I had passed nothing apart from my languages, which I did not do very well as well. The first thing that I had opened upon receiving the stack of documents together with the O-level cert wasn't my results but the courses I'd be able to choose. I had been so overconfident of myself that I couldn't contain the shock I felt when I saw that all the courses started with 'V', meaning, only ITE courses were available to me. Friends came up to ask me my results and emotions choked my words. Reality slapped me hard. What was worse than getting the results were the fact that I had to call up the people who were so supportive and concerned over my grades, and let them know what a disappointment I had caused them. Facing them was the next worse thing. After I had told my mother about my grades, she kept quiet. I knew she was upset, but she didn't want to show it. Instead, she asked, 'So what do you want to study now?' I was upset beyond words because she tried so hard to conceal her disappointment just to let me feel at ease.

Soon after, I had to be hospitalised due to anaemic problems and that was also the period of time when I had to choose the course to apply for. I tried calling up different private institutions like MDIS, Kaplan, NAFA, so on and so forth. At that time, I didn't think of how much it would cost but more on whether I could get accepted into the school or not. I just wanted so badly to NOT get into an ITE, because yes, I was one of those typical people out there who thinks that ITE = IS THE END. 3 out of 5 private institutions said that my passes in my languages were enough for me to get into the school. I was happy at first until my third uncle said he wanted to fork out money for me to study. I wanted to accept the offer so badly but I rejected it. I didn't want to always rely on people, holding on to people to pull myself up when I fall. I wanted to go into an ITE and see where my own abilities can bring me. If I were to fail, I'd go back as a sales promoter and just slowly work my way up. If I succeed, at least I did it with my own efforts and not on someone else's. Friends may think I'm dumb to not accept the offer but I knew what I wanted and stood by my decision.

2 months later, after I had woken up to a few texts from my friends who also applied for ITE, I got a text which stated I had gotten into ITE-College West, CCK, Higher Nitec in Leisure and Travel Operations. I didn't know how to react because I was embarrassed at the thought of going into ITE, yet happy at the fact that I got into a course which seemed 'promising' to me. I went to the ITE, collected my stuffs and soon I was an ITE student.

ITE life wasn't the same as what I had thought previously. I had thought that everywhere I went, there'd be gangsters eyeing you, hooligans throwing rubbish at you just because they feel like it, and vandalism all over the place. I was dead wrong. The ITE was a beautiful place with tranquil spots like mini fountains and even restaurants for the students to enjoy, and just on the first week of school, I fell in love with everyone I met in the school. Everyone was so kind, helpful, friendly and just nice beyond words. The classmates, the coursemates, the lecturers, the school mates. Everyone and everything was awesome. I felt really embarrassed to actually despise this place without even seeing it for myself before. In just a blink of an eye, my ITE life ended and I got a result which gotten me into where I'm heading to now, TP.

In my first year of ITE, I'd thought everything would be a breeze and so I relaxed, played around, somehow thinking that I was doomed to fail. And it reflected on my results, I was a 2plus pointer for my first sem. Few months later, I began to know more of my classmates and an example would be my closer friends, Adeline, Cindy and Esther. They were all from the Normal Technical stream but their results are on the top of the list for the whole of LTO, or may I say, for the whole of Higher Nitec. They never looked down on themselves and although they may not be superb in memorisation skills, they study really hard, work till late hours for their presentations. From them, I could see that people who played hard could work hard as well and still get good grades. I got my wakeup call from them, and studied really hard for my last 2 semesters, and I ended up improving more and more. They are some of the few gems that shouldn't be categorised as 'useless' people in ITE. As expected, they got into a superb poly and also a course of their choice. I'm very sure that those efforts all come from themselves. In one way or another, they have helped me to realise good grades comes with hard work, and I'm glad I realised that before it was too late.

So finally, after 4 years, I'm finally going to step into TP soon. I would be lying if I said I totally don't regret not working hard in my secondary school days, but that regret is probably about 30%? I'm kind of glad that I went into ITE because now I realise that without hard work and just praying for good results won't bring you anywhere in life. If you don't even work hard, don't complain about anything. I don't know what group of people I would be hanging out with when school starts, what kind of twists and turns, or obstacles I would face when I'm in TP, or how many eyes I'd have to avoid because discrimination towards ITE may still be around, but I know for now, I'm going to work really hard and get a diploma in 3 years' time.

2013 hasn't been a kind year to me since its start but I'm sure positivity would override any negative thoughts. So all th best to myself and the people who got into Polytechnics! You worked hard for it! ^^